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i need to write a bit. not for the sake of keeping my LJ current, but for my own sake. i need to deprogram a bit.
i'm sitting in o'henrys with a borrowed computer, dirty, and tired (i slept on a floor and haven't showered in a couple of days), and on my second cup of coffee. i'm happy right now.
i miss europe. i won't say latvia especially, even though i miss the hell out of that place, but i miss europe in general. it had a certain charm to it that became a bit more than a charm.
being a 20 year old college student, i'm sure it's normal for me to be confused about life. that's how i appear to everyone besides my mom. she and i understand that i am not confused about life at all. rather, i'm intrigued by it. i have grown in awe of the world around me. the fact that i don't know what i want to do with my life really means that i know exactly what i want to do with my life. i want to see it all. i know that's ambitious, but i would like to see as much as possible before i die.
so i re read all of that and i sound like the cliche startstruck dreamer with no desire for direction. i'm not. i'm a dreamer, but i know that there is something for me out there, but i'm convinced that it isn't confined to the united states of america. the US has been good to me, but theres so much more out there.
god is so creative. how can we not want to see it all? forget davinci and monet and bach and pachabell and all the other great artists of all trades of our time. we have the greatest work of art ever sitting right in front of us and all we have to do is go. go and forget ourselves and our oppinions and our "truths." half of our truths aren't founded in anything other than tradition and hear-say. truth is all around us. truth is scary and it is liberating. this much i've learned. the more i focus on trying to understand something more, the more questions i have and it's beautiful. i'll never understand it all and that is beautiful. all truth, spiritual and physical, comes from god and i'll never fully understand god, but the more i learn the happier i get and the more i start to walk in time with god and the less i look like trevor.
life is amazing. joy happiness sorrow pain hate love death life. all of these things are awe inspiring. some crushing, some uplifting, but all are amazing in their own respects. i want to see and experience all of these and the ones i haven't mentioned yet.
i didn't have a clear idea where i would go with this one, and i sitt don't understand how it got onto the computer screen his way, but the staff at ohenrys is beginning to wonder if i'll ever leave. so i'll answer that for them.
i'm sitting in o'henrys with a borrowed computer, dirty, and tired (i slept on a floor and haven't showered in a couple of days), and on my second cup of coffee. i'm happy right now.
i miss europe. i won't say latvia especially, even though i miss the hell out of that place, but i miss europe in general. it had a certain charm to it that became a bit more than a charm.
being a 20 year old college student, i'm sure it's normal for me to be confused about life. that's how i appear to everyone besides my mom. she and i understand that i am not confused about life at all. rather, i'm intrigued by it. i have grown in awe of the world around me. the fact that i don't know what i want to do with my life really means that i know exactly what i want to do with my life. i want to see it all. i know that's ambitious, but i would like to see as much as possible before i die.
so i re read all of that and i sound like the cliche startstruck dreamer with no desire for direction. i'm not. i'm a dreamer, but i know that there is something for me out there, but i'm convinced that it isn't confined to the united states of america. the US has been good to me, but theres so much more out there.
god is so creative. how can we not want to see it all? forget davinci and monet and bach and pachabell and all the other great artists of all trades of our time. we have the greatest work of art ever sitting right in front of us and all we have to do is go. go and forget ourselves and our oppinions and our "truths." half of our truths aren't founded in anything other than tradition and hear-say. truth is all around us. truth is scary and it is liberating. this much i've learned. the more i focus on trying to understand something more, the more questions i have and it's beautiful. i'll never understand it all and that is beautiful. all truth, spiritual and physical, comes from god and i'll never fully understand god, but the more i learn the happier i get and the more i start to walk in time with god and the less i look like trevor.
life is amazing. joy happiness sorrow pain hate love death life. all of these things are awe inspiring. some crushing, some uplifting, but all are amazing in their own respects. i want to see and experience all of these and the ones i haven't mentioned yet.
i didn't have a clear idea where i would go with this one, and i sitt don't understand how it got onto the computer screen his way, but the staff at ohenrys is beginning to wonder if i'll ever leave. so i'll answer that for them.