Confused As Ever...

[trev_silverpaw]

These past few days have been terrible.  Just when I thought things were working out great, I'm being targeted for something I didn't even do.  This whole crap with stuff missing and Shadow treating me totally differently blows.  At first when all this came up, I kind of shrugged it off as he just didn't know where it is.  Though now it's just

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[shadowtxhorse]

I guess you don't realize just how seriously theft bothers me. I don't trust people easily, not at all. I've been burned badly so many times in my life, that I was trying to lock myself away so I would never get hurt again. Spike dragged me back out of my solitude, kicking and screaming, until I started to be social again. The problem is that the fear of being hurt is still there simmering under the surface. I don't know who did what, and it leaves me panicky. As you and I have already discussed.

The mystery charge to the bank account was what set it all off with a sudden bang. Having to close all my bank accounts and open new ones was a pain. As was putting fraud control notices on every account I have with the credit bureaus. But I take my finances VERY seriously after losing damn near everything in the bankruptcy in 2004. I've had to fight my way back to where now, I have decent credit again. And I don't want to lose that. I would rather live alone as a recluse than ever get that bad again.

As for scheduling, it is because I'm an old horse and set in my ways. I like to do things on a regular schedule because if I don't, my life falls apart. I need to go to bed at a set time, get up at a set time, etc... Since you are home, I ask and expect you to do some things regularly around the house to help take the stress off of me. If you feel I am asking too much, by all means tell me so we can discuss it. I know that work is driving me batty, and because of that, I need all the help I can get at home. Having the place clean and nice makes me relax when I get home, something you know I have trouble doing.

And the whole public rant thing, was because I wanted to make it very public that I knew all my stuff was missing and what actions I was taking. At the minimum, I hope that it will help cause someone else to not have to go through it themselves, at the best, maybe the guilty party will bring back the items.

I am hard to understand and even harder to live with at times. Just me being a stubborn horse.