The postcard says wish you were here, but I'd rather I was there
I'm so incredibly restless that I do not know what to do with myself right now.
This semester is quite different form the past. Some good, some not so good. It's my last semester in the dorms, thank goodness. I'm sick of not having my own space. I'm finding myself increasingly irritable about the little things when I know I shouldn't be. Sarah and I get along fine. I just need to be alone, to have my own time every now and again and it's been so long since I've had it tat it's starting to eat at me. I don't feel comfortable playing guitar, or what little I know, around her and I don't like tying up the tv with video games because I feel bad. Not to mention I'm up at 6 every morning now and that mean I want to sleep a 11 every night. Not quite the normal schedule for either me or Sarah. Oh well...
That gives rise to my living situation after this semester. Yeah I've got an apartment set starting hopefully summer, if not, fall, but I need to find 2 other people to live with me. And I'm only friends with Sarah and her friends and pat and his friends. I'm not friends with many girls. Ugh. And if it's not ready this summer I have to sublease for a semester. Not like that'll be hard for the summer but still, meh.
Work. Yes. I'm surprised by the way this job has turned out. First off, there's another intern who was hired with me. I didn't know this til I showed up the first day. She's really nice, too. The only thing is she's not as far along in the VCT program as I am which means a lot of the time I feel I'm doing most of the design work and oftentimes I'm showing her the ropes in programs. Of course I realize how selfish this is sounding, but I get frustrated with the situation sometimes. I do not have a lot of patience to begin with and having to keep her up on things when I could just as easily do all the work we're assigned faster alone I just seem to get worn out. But I am glad I she is there. She is a really nice girl and I enjoy having someone to share this experience with. I complain, but I know the job would be lonely and I'd feel much more left out of things there if it were just me.
Another aspect of work that's bothering me is what we're given to work with. They're using Photoshop 7 and Freehand MX.... yes....it's terrible. They use Freehand for page layout, something it is definitely not meant for. And honestly I loathe the program. Sure, I'm certain most of my frustration stems from the fact that I've never worked in it before, but being so used to programs like InDesign, Illustrator, even Quark, Freehand is like working in the stone age. And on top of that, they have a shortage of computers. One computer just failed on one of my coworkers there. The other intern and I get a room with 2 computers in it. One, a crappy Dell that looks like its about 7 years old and the other, a Mac G4 which is fine. Sure its slow but hey, it's better than the PC. The problem is, though, the PC is pointless to work on. All it has is Photoshop Elements super old version or something. So we're forced to either split the computer, or I work on my laptop in cs3. If it's something they would normally use Freehand for, I find myself working in InDesign and saving what I can in pieces and dropping it into Freehand when the other Mac is free. I'm very frustrated with the whole situation.
But when all is said and done, I'm glad I took the job. Most of the people I seem to get along with very well and beside the problems mention above, it's fun and I am learning things. Ive been given a surprising amount of work so far. I've already laid out about 4 or 5 ads for the zoo to be in publications, not to mention had a design considered with 4 other coworkers for the zoo's website redesign. And I get to do fun things like coloring and painting. I'll probably get to do some mural and mosaic work for the new children's zoo to be opened in June. So I really am happy with things.
And that about sums up my life right now along with the normal being away from Marc (not really news, and I could get into another entry about how its hard to re adjust after coming back from a break, but all that needs to be said is I miss him dearly as always and the next time I get to see him is always too far away. I find myself thinking and daydreaming about post-college more and more. Is that bad? ... I guess I kinda did get into this but oh well.) ...and getting classes sorted out for summer. I'll probably be taking 18 or 21 credits this summer and getting a lot of leftover electives I've needed to take.
My birthday is a week from tomorrow. It seems too soon. Didn't I just turn 19?
...also I didn't realize how much I was venting and how much I typed...sorry
This semester is quite different form the past. Some good, some not so good. It's my last semester in the dorms, thank goodness. I'm sick of not having my own space. I'm finding myself increasingly irritable about the little things when I know I shouldn't be. Sarah and I get along fine. I just need to be alone, to have my own time every now and again and it's been so long since I've had it tat it's starting to eat at me. I don't feel comfortable playing guitar, or what little I know, around her and I don't like tying up the tv with video games because I feel bad. Not to mention I'm up at 6 every morning now and that mean I want to sleep a 11 every night. Not quite the normal schedule for either me or Sarah. Oh well...
That gives rise to my living situation after this semester. Yeah I've got an apartment set starting hopefully summer, if not, fall, but I need to find 2 other people to live with me. And I'm only friends with Sarah and her friends and pat and his friends. I'm not friends with many girls. Ugh. And if it's not ready this summer I have to sublease for a semester. Not like that'll be hard for the summer but still, meh.
Work. Yes. I'm surprised by the way this job has turned out. First off, there's another intern who was hired with me. I didn't know this til I showed up the first day. She's really nice, too. The only thing is she's not as far along in the VCT program as I am which means a lot of the time I feel I'm doing most of the design work and oftentimes I'm showing her the ropes in programs. Of course I realize how selfish this is sounding, but I get frustrated with the situation sometimes. I do not have a lot of patience to begin with and having to keep her up on things when I could just as easily do all the work we're assigned faster alone I just seem to get worn out. But I am glad I she is there. She is a really nice girl and I enjoy having someone to share this experience with. I complain, but I know the job would be lonely and I'd feel much more left out of things there if it were just me.
Another aspect of work that's bothering me is what we're given to work with. They're using Photoshop 7 and Freehand MX.... yes....it's terrible. They use Freehand for page layout, something it is definitely not meant for. And honestly I loathe the program. Sure, I'm certain most of my frustration stems from the fact that I've never worked in it before, but being so used to programs like InDesign, Illustrator, even Quark, Freehand is like working in the stone age. And on top of that, they have a shortage of computers. One computer just failed on one of my coworkers there. The other intern and I get a room with 2 computers in it. One, a crappy Dell that looks like its about 7 years old and the other, a Mac G4 which is fine. Sure its slow but hey, it's better than the PC. The problem is, though, the PC is pointless to work on. All it has is Photoshop Elements super old version or something. So we're forced to either split the computer, or I work on my laptop in cs3. If it's something they would normally use Freehand for, I find myself working in InDesign and saving what I can in pieces and dropping it into Freehand when the other Mac is free. I'm very frustrated with the whole situation.
But when all is said and done, I'm glad I took the job. Most of the people I seem to get along with very well and beside the problems mention above, it's fun and I am learning things. Ive been given a surprising amount of work so far. I've already laid out about 4 or 5 ads for the zoo to be in publications, not to mention had a design considered with 4 other coworkers for the zoo's website redesign. And I get to do fun things like coloring and painting. I'll probably get to do some mural and mosaic work for the new children's zoo to be opened in June. So I really am happy with things.
And that about sums up my life right now along with the normal being away from Marc (not really news, and I could get into another entry about how its hard to re adjust after coming back from a break, but all that needs to be said is I miss him dearly as always and the next time I get to see him is always too far away. I find myself thinking and daydreaming about post-college more and more. Is that bad? ... I guess I kinda did get into this but oh well.) ...and getting classes sorted out for summer. I'll probably be taking 18 or 21 credits this summer and getting a lot of leftover electives I've needed to take.
My birthday is a week from tomorrow. It seems too soon. Didn't I just turn 19?
...also I didn't realize how much I was venting and how much I typed...sorry