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so i had a feeling that Allen liked me. and then a few days ago i learned that he actually does like me. well as of now, i kinda have a feeling that he doesn't like me anymore.
my sister knows Ernst (guy from LPC that helps out the Foothill ultimate team at their practices), and he is really good friends with Allen. so a few days ago she asked him if Allen likes me and he said yeah. one of the reasons he doesn't want to go out though is because he used to have a girlfriend on the women's team and he got distracted from his responsibilities to the team as a captain, which the guys obviously weren't too happy about. and Ernst said that Allen probably wouldn't break up with me but if I broke up with him or whatever then he's afraid that that would make me stop playing ultimate.
I was kinda freaking out because I have this thing where I'll like a guy but if he starts liking me then I'll stop liking him. I don't know why. so I was telling my sister I didn't want him to like me and I don't want anything to happen and she was getting all pissed at me because she thinks Allen is really cute and really sweet. and he is. but I don't know.
but now, I have a feeling he doesn't like me... so I'm kind of admitting that I've fallen for him because now I want him to like me again. ok well I'm not sure if he's stopped liking me... but I was talking to him online last night and he just seemed different... detached.. and at one point he sounded annoyed.. which made me annoyed.. and now that I think about it, he didn't have to be such a bitch about it. and he might have been hinting at me to ask him to hang out today but I just wasn't sure and I didn't want to be an idiot if I asked and he didn't want to or whatever. if he was, maybe he was mad at me for not picking up the hint.
i don't know. it's whatever I guess. this is what I wanted right?
my sister knows Ernst (guy from LPC that helps out the Foothill ultimate team at their practices), and he is really good friends with Allen. so a few days ago she asked him if Allen likes me and he said yeah. one of the reasons he doesn't want to go out though is because he used to have a girlfriend on the women's team and he got distracted from his responsibilities to the team as a captain, which the guys obviously weren't too happy about. and Ernst said that Allen probably wouldn't break up with me but if I broke up with him or whatever then he's afraid that that would make me stop playing ultimate.
I was kinda freaking out because I have this thing where I'll like a guy but if he starts liking me then I'll stop liking him. I don't know why. so I was telling my sister I didn't want him to like me and I don't want anything to happen and she was getting all pissed at me because she thinks Allen is really cute and really sweet. and he is. but I don't know.
but now, I have a feeling he doesn't like me... so I'm kind of admitting that I've fallen for him because now I want him to like me again. ok well I'm not sure if he's stopped liking me... but I was talking to him online last night and he just seemed different... detached.. and at one point he sounded annoyed.. which made me annoyed.. and now that I think about it, he didn't have to be such a bitch about it. and he might have been hinting at me to ask him to hang out today but I just wasn't sure and I didn't want to be an idiot if I asked and he didn't want to or whatever. if he was, maybe he was mad at me for not picking up the hint.
i don't know. it's whatever I guess. this is what I wanted right?