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Why do I still care so much??? It makes me feel needy when I don't get the things that I'm expecting - Little, stupid things that I guess I shouldn't expect. I'm going to have to try harder to get out of the habitiual small things that have really grown on me. This is why I got out of everything, to avoid feeling like this needy, obsessive person that I was growing to HATE. I'm afraid of ever getting into another relationship because I'm afraid I'll bring that part of my personality out again and I have no idea how to change or get rid of it and I'm scared to death of that.