boredom
Yeah, thats how bored I am, I'm fucking posting on my livejournal. This job is really awful, but they pay me good money to sit on my ass on my laptop so I guess I should be thankful.
I really do not even know what to write about. This semester has been kinda lame, my classes were boring and I really was overly apathetic and spent most of the semester in some introverted drug haze. I really just can't get myself to care about anything anymore. The longer I live the more disgusted I become with the world around me, and it makes me wonder... if over the course of the past year things I learned about the world that disgusted me incresed..perhaps they will continually to increase expontenially every year that I am alive, it makes me wonder how long before I break? How long before we all break? We are continually discovering new and unusual ways to destroy ourselves and our planet, and no care is made except to the bourgeois society that profits.
I left the school of communications here, I realized I could never be a journalist. To be a journalist is to give in to the system of indoctorination, and not only give in, but perpetuate it. Reporting is too bland and is the simple regurgitating of facts and prefabricated falsehoods into print. Editorialists are equally as guilty. I am now a philosophy/religion major, in the 5 year masters program. I figured the most I can do is try to enlighten students or at least set them on the path and provide them with some resources they need to begin questioning the omnipresent oppressive force of our society around them. We are all imprisoned on this sinking ship of capitalistic 20th century ideas, and those of us who wish to escape would do so, if only we could find the bars to our cell. I may spend my entire life looking for the bars, I may never do it, but to spend a life searching is better then spending it in ignorant acceptance of my confinement.
InnerCombustion is keeping me sane at the moment. Things are going outstanding. Our music is being churned out at exceptional rates. I love the guys in the band, all incredible musicians with whom its an honor to play, and all amazing guys who I am glad to list as my close friends. We have been getting about 70plays and up a day on the myspace, we won track of the day for lithium words on garageband, I was just on the radio down here in dc playing our music and talking about the band, and end of June we embark on a three week tour with AnthroApologie and LAW through Atlantic City, Philly, New York, Boston, Detroit, and DC. Should be a great time. I am more optimistic about this band than any other I have worked with, and am attacking it with the ferocity as if this was my final shot at the music thing, and honestly it most likely is... thats a lie I would never be able to give up music, but this might be my final logical chance.
Well I really dont know what else to write, I hope more acid comes around soon, I guess I could settle for shrooms but they are more expensive and I dont enjoy the eating process, I have weird gag reflexes to things I dont like the taste of...
Nicotine, valium, vicodin, marijuana, ecstasy and alcohol.
Cocaine.
good song...
I really do not even know what to write about. This semester has been kinda lame, my classes were boring and I really was overly apathetic and spent most of the semester in some introverted drug haze. I really just can't get myself to care about anything anymore. The longer I live the more disgusted I become with the world around me, and it makes me wonder... if over the course of the past year things I learned about the world that disgusted me incresed..perhaps they will continually to increase expontenially every year that I am alive, it makes me wonder how long before I break? How long before we all break? We are continually discovering new and unusual ways to destroy ourselves and our planet, and no care is made except to the bourgeois society that profits.
I left the school of communications here, I realized I could never be a journalist. To be a journalist is to give in to the system of indoctorination, and not only give in, but perpetuate it. Reporting is too bland and is the simple regurgitating of facts and prefabricated falsehoods into print. Editorialists are equally as guilty. I am now a philosophy/religion major, in the 5 year masters program. I figured the most I can do is try to enlighten students or at least set them on the path and provide them with some resources they need to begin questioning the omnipresent oppressive force of our society around them. We are all imprisoned on this sinking ship of capitalistic 20th century ideas, and those of us who wish to escape would do so, if only we could find the bars to our cell. I may spend my entire life looking for the bars, I may never do it, but to spend a life searching is better then spending it in ignorant acceptance of my confinement.
InnerCombustion is keeping me sane at the moment. Things are going outstanding. Our music is being churned out at exceptional rates. I love the guys in the band, all incredible musicians with whom its an honor to play, and all amazing guys who I am glad to list as my close friends. We have been getting about 70plays and up a day on the myspace, we won track of the day for lithium words on garageband, I was just on the radio down here in dc playing our music and talking about the band, and end of June we embark on a three week tour with AnthroApologie and LAW through Atlantic City, Philly, New York, Boston, Detroit, and DC. Should be a great time. I am more optimistic about this band than any other I have worked with, and am attacking it with the ferocity as if this was my final shot at the music thing, and honestly it most likely is... thats a lie I would never be able to give up music, but this might be my final logical chance.
Well I really dont know what else to write, I hope more acid comes around soon, I guess I could settle for shrooms but they are more expensive and I dont enjoy the eating process, I have weird gag reflexes to things I dont like the taste of...
Nicotine, valium, vicodin, marijuana, ecstasy and alcohol.
Cocaine.
good song...