Death...
Why is it that death comes when you lease expect it. I found out today that I lost someone that I looked up to just the other night. Her girlfriend broke up with her and she decided that there was no reason to go on. Such a selfish thought to enter a persons mind.... Forget the son, family, and friends that she leaves behind. I'm not quite sure how I feel about the whole situation. I would cry but the tears have been shed so many times before. Life is so short, so complicated, and at times so sad. It hurts me to know how much this is hurting people I care about, it hurts me that nobody could have talked her out of it. And it hurts me to now know. Sometimes I just want to pick up the whole world and hold it because of all the pain. I know that is quites nostalgic, if thats the right word. But I do. So much pain in such a complicated place.