Sometimes my heart breaks more...
So tonight I got to hang out with another one of my grandfathers, whom I have met like twice. And it just brought up so much more pain then I wanted to feel. I mean, anyone that I seem to have a chance to consider family, passes away on me. And I just cant handle getting close to someone again only to lose them in a year or two. So I held back from really trying to get closer then I had to with him. I just don't want to be alone at a funeral crying for someone that promised they wouldn't leave me.