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I hate that all my friends from HS that I knew before going to Japan are now poor, and living out on their own somewhere.
I hate that I went back to Newfoundland for the first time in 3 years I saw and remembered how poor we really used to be. Overflowing ashtrays in every corner of the room, moth eaten sofas, flyaway hair and haggling over coffee prices.
I hate that my parents are now splitting up and we're back at square one; single mother with 3 kids to feed.
I hate that I have to do grade 11 and grade 12 simontaneously and the other 90% of my time is spent working at a call center.
I hate how misleading and manipulative guys can be.
I hate how people, even random strangers can depend on me for shit.
I hate that I'm taking a chance; that I'm going out on my own, to get an education in one of the most competitive fields in the world - and frankly, the pay isn't that good. There's a chance I might make it big and I'll love my job and be jetsetting from catwalk to catwalk but then there's a chance I'll end up working in the wings of a theatre for 300 bucks a week - not how I want to spend my life.
I hate that I went to the open house for McGill University and now I've rediscovered my passion for university and I want to be a Lawyer again.
I need to think about a lot of shit right now and it's hard. It's so hard.
But my top priority right now is getting as far away from here as I possibly can. Atlantic Canada is NOT the land of opputunity and frankly, it can suck my balls.
I hate that I went back to Newfoundland for the first time in 3 years I saw and remembered how poor we really used to be. Overflowing ashtrays in every corner of the room, moth eaten sofas, flyaway hair and haggling over coffee prices.
I hate that my parents are now splitting up and we're back at square one; single mother with 3 kids to feed.
I hate that I have to do grade 11 and grade 12 simontaneously and the other 90% of my time is spent working at a call center.
I hate how misleading and manipulative guys can be.
I hate how people, even random strangers can depend on me for shit.
I hate that I'm taking a chance; that I'm going out on my own, to get an education in one of the most competitive fields in the world - and frankly, the pay isn't that good. There's a chance I might make it big and I'll love my job and be jetsetting from catwalk to catwalk but then there's a chance I'll end up working in the wings of a theatre for 300 bucks a week - not how I want to spend my life.
I hate that I went to the open house for McGill University and now I've rediscovered my passion for university and I want to be a Lawyer again.
I need to think about a lot of shit right now and it's hard. It's so hard.
But my top priority right now is getting as far away from here as I possibly can. Atlantic Canada is NOT the land of opputunity and frankly, it can suck my balls.