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I feel lost.
In the last few days it's felt like everything is falling apart around me, like I'm falling in darkness reaching out for something to grab to hold on to, a chance to climb back up, but everything I get a hold of just pulls out; only pausing the fall for a matter of seconds filling me with a moment of false hope for salvation.
I need something, but I'm afraid to ask. I've always been to shy or overwhelmed or self concious to be the one to make a move or to speak my true feelings, and time and time again it becomes my downfall. I see those things I've dreamed about, just out of my reach starting to drift further and further away. Am I giving in, am I accepting defeat??? I don't know, but I feel a big change coming soon, and I don't think it's in my favor. I speak in riddles because I'm afraid to let people understand how I really feel, because I don't even understand it myself. I need something, yet at the same time I need nothing. I need YOU to save me, but I'm afraid to let you.
Tell me what's next, because I'm afraid to look.
In the last few days it's felt like everything is falling apart around me, like I'm falling in darkness reaching out for something to grab to hold on to, a chance to climb back up, but everything I get a hold of just pulls out; only pausing the fall for a matter of seconds filling me with a moment of false hope for salvation.
I need something, but I'm afraid to ask. I've always been to shy or overwhelmed or self concious to be the one to make a move or to speak my true feelings, and time and time again it becomes my downfall. I see those things I've dreamed about, just out of my reach starting to drift further and further away. Am I giving in, am I accepting defeat??? I don't know, but I feel a big change coming soon, and I don't think it's in my favor. I speak in riddles because I'm afraid to let people understand how I really feel, because I don't even understand it myself. I need something, yet at the same time I need nothing. I need YOU to save me, but I'm afraid to let you.
Tell me what's next, because I'm afraid to look.