and you do let me push you around. i'm tired of it. but be warned, i'm fucking mean when people stand up to me. i usually go: "i don't give a fuck/i don't care, i'm going to do that anyway, fuck you". don't let that deter you, realise it's just my conduct disorder and that i might not feel guilty about it, because... i can't, christy. i was made this way by my mother. it's hard for me to feel those emotions.
just keep pressing. keep saying it until you get it through to me. if you do it enough (and rarely does any one, they pretty much all back off, except maybe my dad and a few people) it will eventually click. i'll feel a low level of guilt, very low, but present. i'll feel bad and that i shouldn't have done that, and i'll work to improve. you just have to keep standing up, no matter how much my reaction hurts you.
it's just how you deal with me.
does it really? i guess this is guilt... i guess i just said that too with my last statement. that is guilt! i don't know, christy. i feel so empty inside.
yes, please teach me how not to want to fight. i need to borrow things from you, i need to sometimes let people stand up to me and for me to back off. i need to stop.
From now on, I'll make an effort to stand up to you more. I tend to fear confrontation, but perhaps this is just what I need to get over that fear. We both have something to learn from each other.
just keep pressing. keep saying it until you get it through to me. if you do it enough (and rarely does any one, they pretty much all back off, except maybe my dad and a few people) it will eventually click. i'll feel a low level of guilt, very low, but present. i'll feel bad and that i shouldn't have done that, and i'll work to improve. you just have to keep standing up, no matter how much my reaction hurts you.
it's just how you deal with me.
does it really? i guess this is guilt... i guess i just said that too with my last statement. that is guilt! i don't know, christy. i feel so empty inside.
yes, please teach me how not to want to fight. i need to borrow things from you, i need to sometimes let people stand up to me and for me to back off. i need to stop.
i just want to be like you.
i want to be a human being.
i want to feel guilt.
i want to feel empathy.
please help me.
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