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Took a train ride for an hour to come back home at 8am this morning. It wasn't as depressing as the ride it took to get out there. I listened to The Life Aquatic Soundtrack and came up with a game where I looked for especially happy things amidst the industry and poverty. Like poppies alongside the road, a drive-in movie theatre, and that none of the horses that were kept alongside the tracks(and there were many) looked underfed or unhealthy.
Its so strange to think that people I would haver considered my best friends a couple years ago annoy me now. Or at least don't really fit the definition of what I think a good friend is. This is a pseudo-nod to the post you made Jessie, I know how you feel. The people who I do consider my good friends now, the people who actually know me and care about me, either have been too busy to keep in touch-which I have been too-or live very far away, or are my relatives. Some days I can't wait to have my own boat where I can just have the people I want to be there, creative people who want to make a difference. Or at least want to create something special.
With this in mind, I'm going to continue trying to live each day individually, and pursue as many oppourtunities and experiences as I can, providing it won't interfere with my future too severely. I will live spherically, and be multifaceted.
Its so strange to think that people I would haver considered my best friends a couple years ago annoy me now. Or at least don't really fit the definition of what I think a good friend is. This is a pseudo-nod to the post you made Jessie, I know how you feel. The people who I do consider my good friends now, the people who actually know me and care about me, either have been too busy to keep in touch-which I have been too-or live very far away, or are my relatives. Some days I can't wait to have my own boat where I can just have the people I want to be there, creative people who want to make a difference. Or at least want to create something special.
With this in mind, I'm going to continue trying to live each day individually, and pursue as many oppourtunities and experiences as I can, providing it won't interfere with my future too severely. I will live spherically, and be multifaceted.