beautiful bleeding morning glories

[trelanea]

oh so sad
eyelids like big purple jolie lips
hanging down over my pupils
i hide behind eyelash fingers

its so hard to pry myself away from the routine
comforting reassuring attention
asking me how my day was
every day
now its silence
and static
and other people I dont want to hear from

asking me to plan shit
for which they volunteered
its unfortunate that you think its unfair
but thats why i didnt volunteer
and now you can go fuck yourself

*sigh*

burying little pieces of my heart
in the garden in front of the window
I hope they will survive and grow
beautiful bleeding morning glories
will you be sure to water them for me?

;_;

i know you are there in silence
i know you are there...
i want to hear your voice
and not cry or feel chopped up

im sorry i didnt care
it proved to be la la land
a psychological device i built
in my unconcious
to push you away
to hurt you for not being what I need

and now I'm so so sorry
my head hurts and my face swells
but i can't cry at work
i read all day about inflammation.
well, tell me about it.
any way i can break out, swell, itch or throb
you better believe its goin off right now.
i might just eat our peptide...