Turn the Paige...
I know... bad pun - i couldn't help myself.
So its time to leave Corvallis and all that it entails.
I am feeling very much like a tiny leaf on a very big sea. It is surging beneath me, I am drifting up the swell backwards, waiting for the big push, a swirl around, then the laugh on the way back down.
(When the universe feels like the ocean, i am inclined to note how completely unpredictable fluid dynamics are.)
I am sad about leaving my indoor soccer team Chicks with Kicks. I really really love playing indoor soccer- particularly with them. After getting kicked off another team, we made this team... It's MY team. But gratefully, I hand it off to my trusted wonderful teammates, and hope it will still be here every time i visit wanting to kick balls. Today was my last game (as a consistant teammember). :( I made key lime bars for after; I kicked the crap outta the ball, I ran and ran and ran, and for once, I actually didn't WANT to sub out.
I can't even begin to explain how much impact this team has had on me emotionally, socially, and physically. What else can I say? I will try to return to Corvallis from time to time to play a night of soccer. I will try to find an indoor league in Portland. I will stay in touch with my teammates. Hopefully, it wont feel like a great loss for too long.
I am leaving Sunny. I am not sure I really want to go into detail about this, because I respect him a lot... But our lives are taking us in very different directions, and we are both accepting it, adjusting to it, and saddened by it...
-but relieved to have the elephants out of the room.
Mostly I'm going into move mode, and hope to be over the requisite exhaustion before I start work. I, like everyone, hate to move. I have a lot of shit. (Anytime one moves into a big place, the instinct is to fill it... This has been my experience.) I aquire stuff like nobodys business! So I got rid of a bunch of clothes today, and some junk, and I am trying to pack, but as usual I have a months worth of packing and a weeks worth of time.... I always wonder which items will disappear this time? Half of my stuff will be put in my dads warehouse. The other half will be stuffed into the garage of my parents house. Somehow, I will have to be able to tell which things should logically go where, so I dont end up 7 miles away from ALL my underwear... A challenging task. Then I will move again as soon as I can afford to. woof...
Jess is moving across the country, and her departure date is closing in like wildfire... Its the day after I start my new job! Thats way too soon! damn.... Yeah, I'm needy, but am actually super excited for her! *jumps* And she challenges me to be brave too. :) *flexes* WE can do it!
I am excited and apprehensive about my new job. I have a lot of questions that I need to ask before I start... (Like can I wear sneakers? is it hourly or salary? am I overtime exempt?) I was stupefied be the opportunity that I forgot to ask some of the big basic questions... But c'est la vie. I will write her an email.
sooo anyway... what else is there? I am sugared out on celebratory lime bars, and smelly as all hell from soccer. I am strong, but would like to be distracted from the slippery slope- my natural tendency to wallow in despair over the losses, even though very shortly, I will be rewarded and totally completely busy. XD
A final note:
*cough* Dont breathe while you eat powdered sugar! *hack*
So its time to leave Corvallis and all that it entails.
I am feeling very much like a tiny leaf on a very big sea. It is surging beneath me, I am drifting up the swell backwards, waiting for the big push, a swirl around, then the laugh on the way back down.
(When the universe feels like the ocean, i am inclined to note how completely unpredictable fluid dynamics are.)
I am sad about leaving my indoor soccer team Chicks with Kicks. I really really love playing indoor soccer- particularly with them. After getting kicked off another team, we made this team... It's MY team. But gratefully, I hand it off to my trusted wonderful teammates, and hope it will still be here every time i visit wanting to kick balls. Today was my last game (as a consistant teammember). :( I made key lime bars for after; I kicked the crap outta the ball, I ran and ran and ran, and for once, I actually didn't WANT to sub out.
I can't even begin to explain how much impact this team has had on me emotionally, socially, and physically. What else can I say? I will try to return to Corvallis from time to time to play a night of soccer. I will try to find an indoor league in Portland. I will stay in touch with my teammates. Hopefully, it wont feel like a great loss for too long.
I am leaving Sunny. I am not sure I really want to go into detail about this, because I respect him a lot... But our lives are taking us in very different directions, and we are both accepting it, adjusting to it, and saddened by it...
-but relieved to have the elephants out of the room.
Mostly I'm going into move mode, and hope to be over the requisite exhaustion before I start work. I, like everyone, hate to move. I have a lot of shit. (Anytime one moves into a big place, the instinct is to fill it... This has been my experience.) I aquire stuff like nobodys business! So I got rid of a bunch of clothes today, and some junk, and I am trying to pack, but as usual I have a months worth of packing and a weeks worth of time.... I always wonder which items will disappear this time? Half of my stuff will be put in my dads warehouse. The other half will be stuffed into the garage of my parents house. Somehow, I will have to be able to tell which things should logically go where, so I dont end up 7 miles away from ALL my underwear... A challenging task. Then I will move again as soon as I can afford to. woof...
Jess is moving across the country, and her departure date is closing in like wildfire... Its the day after I start my new job! Thats way too soon! damn.... Yeah, I'm needy, but am actually super excited for her! *jumps* And she challenges me to be brave too. :) *flexes* WE can do it!
I am excited and apprehensive about my new job. I have a lot of questions that I need to ask before I start... (Like can I wear sneakers? is it hourly or salary? am I overtime exempt?) I was stupefied be the opportunity that I forgot to ask some of the big basic questions... But c'est la vie. I will write her an email.
sooo anyway... what else is there? I am sugared out on celebratory lime bars, and smelly as all hell from soccer. I am strong, but would like to be distracted from the slippery slope- my natural tendency to wallow in despair over the losses, even though very shortly, I will be rewarded and totally completely busy. XD
A final note:
*cough* Dont breathe while you eat powdered sugar! *hack*