complicate
so how can i figure out how to differentiate permanence from temporary and how do i move subtly from one to the other and how can i know which is right because nothing is feeling the way it should and i shouldnt cry after kissing someone or have doubts or certainties before anything happens i just feel so incredibly awkward and confused and out of place and and i dont want anybody to end up hurt but i am hurting a lot and trying to make decisions which is the worst thing to have to do a lot of the times it is i cant let things just happen because it is all to intense and fast and i cant find my pace