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[cadet_amara]

*hitting the punching bag very aggressively*

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[setphasersto]

[Cautiously] Frank problems?

[cadet_amara]

*still hitting* Not really. If it was that I'd hit him.

[setphasersto]

You wanna talk about it?

[cadet_amara]

*shakes her head a little* Just why do mothers *whack* cause such *whack* freakin' *whack* problems? *WHACK WHACK* *because damn for having little girl arms she sure has a mean punch*

[setphasersto]

[laughs a little] You're asking the wrong person. [teases a little, trying to lighten the mood] I could comm my dad and ask his opinion? But I can tell you he'll probably say, "Are you trying to raise my blood pressure, Angie?"

[cadet_amara]

*amused little half chuckle* *stops punching for a minute and wipes her forehead* I'm not responding to her messages. I'm done with that bullshit... she may fool a parole board but- *stops herself and shakes her head* You know what? Nevermind. I'm just going to beat the hell out of this punching bag, get it all out here, and leave it here.

[setphasersto]

Sounds like a good idea. Maybe it's time to let her be part of your past... and just leave her there?

[cadet_amara]

*shrugs* Wasn't even really in that. She's like this nasty parasite that surfaces about every ten years and tries to suck the life out of you.

[setphasersto]

[nods] I'm sorry.

[cadet_amara]

*shrugs a little* Everyone's got problems, don't they? Mine probably seem minor compared to a lot of them. That's life I guess... just the way it is.

[setphasersto]

But the thing is, your problems are your problems. No one else can tell you that your problems don't matter or that they're not big enough to be important.

[sighs]I get how you feel, in a way. I haven't heard from my mom since she she left but I've still got that feeling that... somehow she's going to be the reason I fuck everything up.

[cadet_amara]

*so glad there's someone who gets it* Exactly. When my mother got arrested and they took me away she told me it was my fault, and that if I hadn't been so stupid everything would have been fine. That sort of thing just sticks with you. *shakes her head* People should have to have a license to have a baby, I swear.

[setphasersto]

Yeah.[a beat, and she reconsiders] Though, I'm pretty sure if a license was required, you and I wouldn't be here. And upon further reflection, I'm not actually okay with that.

[cadet_amara]

That is a good point. *pauses* Would you forgive your mother? *cringes a little because that's an awkward question* Sorry... that's probably really personal.

[setphasersto]

[she shrugs, and frowns] I.. I don't know. Maybe if it was just me she'd hurt. If she showed up, said she was sorry for walking out... yeah. I'd think about it. But I couldn't ever forgive her for leaving Daddy. It wasn't fair to him. He gave a lot to do the best for me.

[cadet_amara]

That must have been nice. Having someone like that. Someone willing to do that.