Jan 11, 2010 02:07
--If I know anything, it's nothing at all.
Yet... somehow I'm getting better.--
I wrote those lyrics at age 17 and they still apply. Good work Ghost of Trevor's past. Humility comes in great quantities these days. Luckily, I've accounted for most things. So far I just stay the course. Look forward and make sure that no matter where I end up, that I can do it correctly.
So no, I may not be the charmer I used to be. The hopeless romanticism has seceded to careful planning and clever contingencies. I'm actually comfortable with who I am and who I'm becoming. I have a pretty solid direction in my life and I am more than determined to get there. I will get there. I require effort: from myself and everyone around me.
I never said I was comforting.
In fact... I've often said the opposite. I don't think anyone takes me seriously because I'm always smiling. Someday I'll figure it all out. Right now I have my theories, and so far so good.
"I went down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees."