I intend on getting a broken heart
I'm so dashboard confessional right now. Oy vey... So haha tonight was ridiculous (as most cronicles of a lush are). I got drunk. I got pissed. I got emo... what's new? I drunk dialed. Oh how funny. I talked to chris. He apologized for being such a fuck up. But, here's where the good part comes in. He promised that he'd be to lainas within an hour to talk to me. To discuss our falling apart. And to discuss our falling together. Oy. I know I set myself up for disaster cuz I know he's not going to show up and he's just going to break my heart (again). I wonder if he knows he broke my heart. If wade still reads this shit he's probably laughing. But he shouldn't be, cuz he could never break my heart. Cuz he's worthless in my mind and always was. I've known chris for under a month, and I like him more than I ever gave a shit about wade. I hate wade. J'adore chris. Damn. So I'm setting myself up for heartbreak cuz I know he's not gonna show. Oh god, I hope he proves me wrong. More than anything on earth let him prove me wrong. I want, oh dear. And my weeks sucked cuz I was kicked out. So no one but chiyo and laina and claire love me. I just need affection. Oy... please let him not fuck me over. I love life. I love perscription drugs. I hate those who hate me. Love is the key, let's make it work baby. Goodnight. (unless I get too drunk to remember and make another post later!). Peace.