edinburgh
Dammnation. I've been so anxious about my Tom and our future together that I gradually become more psychotically depressed and cut. but this time it was really deep i had to go to hosp to get stitches. it hurt, im so worried about him. he's back on the streets again, but he's starting a job tonight, yay! and he;s been OFF the heroin for two months! wow, its so weird that we're both so much in love and i actually believe him. i actually believe him when he says im beautiful. i dont think i AM but i believe that he thinks i am, if that makes sense. anyway, hopefuilly visiting him v soon. i love him.
on anti biotics for my cutting thing which got infected, yuck. tom wants me to stop self harming, he says it makes him cry. i'll really try this time for him. because he went through heroin withdrawal for me, and hes really sorting himself out. anyway, im going to keep thoughts about tom private usually as its personal to us both, i usually am way to open, so if it do, its gonna b vague, apart from the random explosion of YAY I LOVE TOM, ness. anyhoo. im at my sisters, went to visit her in edinburgh coz my depression and anxiety were getting bad again, and esp after cutting up i needed to be with her. must get on with work and see if tom is alright. hell i love him.
must email rma, i been thinking bout her lots and wodering how she is! rma my love, hope yer well!!
ende.
on anti biotics for my cutting thing which got infected, yuck. tom wants me to stop self harming, he says it makes him cry. i'll really try this time for him. because he went through heroin withdrawal for me, and hes really sorting himself out. anyway, im going to keep thoughts about tom private usually as its personal to us both, i usually am way to open, so if it do, its gonna b vague, apart from the random explosion of YAY I LOVE TOM, ness. anyhoo. im at my sisters, went to visit her in edinburgh coz my depression and anxiety were getting bad again, and esp after cutting up i needed to be with her. must get on with work and see if tom is alright. hell i love him.
must email rma, i been thinking bout her lots and wodering how she is! rma my love, hope yer well!!
ende.