grow up
sorry i haven't had time to keep up with the LJ folks. life in jared land has been hectic and continues. money problems plague me. i had to borrow $500 from my brother today. i haven't borrowed money from anyone in over 7 years. i think an ulcer is growing in my belly.
sometimes i wonder if any of this is worth it. my quality of life seems to be below average lately. i look at people who have spouses and houses and lawns that need mowing and i wonder if that really is the goal. am i this gigantic loser because i make $2000 a month yet find myself eating ramen and using quarters to pay for packs of cigarettes and i live in my brother's basement?
i was pretty sure that the goal of life was happiness, but i'm no where even close to achieving that goal.
sometimes i wonder if any of this is worth it. my quality of life seems to be below average lately. i look at people who have spouses and houses and lawns that need mowing and i wonder if that really is the goal. am i this gigantic loser because i make $2000 a month yet find myself eating ramen and using quarters to pay for packs of cigarettes and i live in my brother's basement?
i was pretty sure that the goal of life was happiness, but i'm no where even close to achieving that goal.