Who am I? Who are you?
Due to Christmas present research, I ended up reading a bunch of archived entries tonight. Old entries make me feel so nostalgic and grateful. I ended up writing e-mails to a couple friends telling them how much I appreciate their friendship.
Kali, I found one entry, written at the end of a semester, lamenting how sad it was that I would not see you five times a week anymore. Can you believe we used to see each other almost every day of the week and hang out on some weekends, too? I miss that a lot.
Most of all, I discovered that I've changed in huge ways. Simultaneously, I realize that things I love, I will love pretty much always.
Changes:
1. What the hell was wrong with my grammatical and writing skills? There were some entries I couldn't comprehend. The run-on sentences and lack of commas killed me. Maybe that's why I use commas so profusely now. My writing skills have transformed since I was nineteen.
2. I was so honest about everything. I wrote a lot of entries about being an angry, crazy person. I feel like most of my entries are carefully filtered these days. Coincidentally, one of the goals I wrote down earlier this evening is about wanting to be more genuine. Funny huh? At the same time, I'm glad. I often wrote rather awfully "honest" things, like describing being mad at a friend that READ THIS JOURNAL.
3. I'm so much more practical and finance-focused these days. I was like a completely different person when it came to deciding what I wanted and how I wanted to spend money. I'm much more focused on the big picture and the impact of small decisions.
4. My friends and I communicated so much more when we were just procrastinating students.
Observations:
1. I pretty much love the same music, books, T.V. shows, and games. It's so weird. I notice there are things I ask for almost every Christmas. It's so weird to see that.
2. Our trio basically was meant to be. One moment Julie and I hit it off. Then, seconds later, the trio quickly formed over pizza and anthropology. Then it was just a matter of weeks before we were buying each other gifts, spending tons of time together, and forming our traditions forever. For so many relationships, this kind of thing burns and fades when the semester ends or you graduate. But it's just gone on and on. Aren't we so lucky girls?
3. We kind of began over Livejournal. Livejournal was starting to fade in importance in my life. Truthfully, it began to fade months ago. Now, I realized the place it had in forming and cementing our friendship. It also is a record of so many funny things that happened. I resolve to write more often! Burn Facebook, you impersonal, superficial, commercialized pulp, burn.
4. I've love and grown with Thomas is so many ways. Yet, so many things stay the same. Like my two best friends, we met and things just clicked. I'm so happy for all our memories and our new (married) perspective on them.
5. This one is sad: I'm always struggling to be about 120 pounds. I lose weight, get complacent, and gain about 20 or 30 pounds before I reign it in. I've only done it succesfully in a healthy way once, but that's fresh in my memory.
6. I'm stupid and angry still. That sucks.
Nostalgia, won't you let me go? It is now time for bed. I have slept three hours since yesterday. I need you sleep!
Kali, I found one entry, written at the end of a semester, lamenting how sad it was that I would not see you five times a week anymore. Can you believe we used to see each other almost every day of the week and hang out on some weekends, too? I miss that a lot.
Most of all, I discovered that I've changed in huge ways. Simultaneously, I realize that things I love, I will love pretty much always.
Changes:
1. What the hell was wrong with my grammatical and writing skills? There were some entries I couldn't comprehend. The run-on sentences and lack of commas killed me. Maybe that's why I use commas so profusely now. My writing skills have transformed since I was nineteen.
2. I was so honest about everything. I wrote a lot of entries about being an angry, crazy person. I feel like most of my entries are carefully filtered these days. Coincidentally, one of the goals I wrote down earlier this evening is about wanting to be more genuine. Funny huh? At the same time, I'm glad. I often wrote rather awfully "honest" things, like describing being mad at a friend that READ THIS JOURNAL.
3. I'm so much more practical and finance-focused these days. I was like a completely different person when it came to deciding what I wanted and how I wanted to spend money. I'm much more focused on the big picture and the impact of small decisions.
4. My friends and I communicated so much more when we were just procrastinating students.
Observations:
1. I pretty much love the same music, books, T.V. shows, and games. It's so weird. I notice there are things I ask for almost every Christmas. It's so weird to see that.
2. Our trio basically was meant to be. One moment Julie and I hit it off. Then, seconds later, the trio quickly formed over pizza and anthropology. Then it was just a matter of weeks before we were buying each other gifts, spending tons of time together, and forming our traditions forever. For so many relationships, this kind of thing burns and fades when the semester ends or you graduate. But it's just gone on and on. Aren't we so lucky girls?
3. We kind of began over Livejournal. Livejournal was starting to fade in importance in my life. Truthfully, it began to fade months ago. Now, I realized the place it had in forming and cementing our friendship. It also is a record of so many funny things that happened. I resolve to write more often! Burn Facebook, you impersonal, superficial, commercialized pulp, burn.
4. I've love and grown with Thomas is so many ways. Yet, so many things stay the same. Like my two best friends, we met and things just clicked. I'm so happy for all our memories and our new (married) perspective on them.
5. This one is sad: I'm always struggling to be about 120 pounds. I lose weight, get complacent, and gain about 20 or 30 pounds before I reign it in. I've only done it succesfully in a healthy way once, but that's fresh in my memory.
6. I'm stupid and angry still. That sucks.
Nostalgia, won't you let me go? It is now time for bed. I have slept three hours since yesterday. I need you sleep!