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Gram died last night.
She fought for a long time with toxins coursing her system, always trying to laugh and joke with people. Last night she was put on a breathing tube, and Jay and I think that's when she let herself give up. When she couldn't talk to anyone anymore.
I still haven't cried. I'm putting all my emotional energy into doing things -- making hotel reservations, printing up the articles I need for the 10 page paper that's due Wednesday, trying to figure out how I'm going to handle the food thing.... it's easier than dealing.
I'll have to deal soon. Just writing this almost made me cry. It's making it more real.
I've got to go -- more stuff to do. The car is 1000 miles overdue for an oil change, and I'll be putting another 600 miles on it this weekend.
She fought for a long time with toxins coursing her system, always trying to laugh and joke with people. Last night she was put on a breathing tube, and Jay and I think that's when she let herself give up. When she couldn't talk to anyone anymore.
I still haven't cried. I'm putting all my emotional energy into doing things -- making hotel reservations, printing up the articles I need for the 10 page paper that's due Wednesday, trying to figure out how I'm going to handle the food thing.... it's easier than dealing.
I'll have to deal soon. Just writing this almost made me cry. It's making it more real.
I've got to go -- more stuff to do. The car is 1000 miles overdue for an oil change, and I'll be putting another 600 miles on it this weekend.