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I'm in one of those really bad moods right now. One of those moods you don't see coming yet they hit you fully in the face. And so now I'm laying on my back and wondering where the fuck I've gone wrong.
And I really don't know why I have this feeling at all. Things have appeared to be turning out really well. But it never seems to be enough for me and that really pisses me off. I used to think that it was my drive to always want to reach something better but really I think I have trouble just being content.
The littlest things piss me off as well....
All of the problems I have done so far in calculus have been correct. And I should be proud but really I'm already sick and tired of it. I have a fear of repeating the precal incident where I made one mistake and decided to just give up. It's pretty much the first time I have ever done that. But if I dont' get an A or a B in this course I'm changing my major.
I'm really homesick at the moment and it's been forever since I've felt this way. The sudden e-mails and calls haven't helped but have been really nice. I guess this leads back to my age old problem of never being able to fit in.
Now I'm back to bitching and complaining and I don't want to do that. It won't get me anywhere.
I have a huge problem with self image at the moment. It's ridiculous. I've been doing such a good job of getting up early and running but it doesn't seem to be doing much. I can't wait to have a gym available nearby.
Tomorrow is my only day off this week so I need to use it well.
And I really don't know why I have this feeling at all. Things have appeared to be turning out really well. But it never seems to be enough for me and that really pisses me off. I used to think that it was my drive to always want to reach something better but really I think I have trouble just being content.
The littlest things piss me off as well....
All of the problems I have done so far in calculus have been correct. And I should be proud but really I'm already sick and tired of it. I have a fear of repeating the precal incident where I made one mistake and decided to just give up. It's pretty much the first time I have ever done that. But if I dont' get an A or a B in this course I'm changing my major.
I'm really homesick at the moment and it's been forever since I've felt this way. The sudden e-mails and calls haven't helped but have been really nice. I guess this leads back to my age old problem of never being able to fit in.
Now I'm back to bitching and complaining and I don't want to do that. It won't get me anywhere.
I have a huge problem with self image at the moment. It's ridiculous. I've been doing such a good job of getting up early and running but it doesn't seem to be doing much. I can't wait to have a gym available nearby.
Tomorrow is my only day off this week so I need to use it well.