sadness
just read sarah's thing and it made me sad. but then i'm listening to some music from the 80's so i'm okay, sorta. Nwayz she was talkin about sad ppl listening t sad music so that they can get sadder. and i think the best way to compare it is that listeing to sad songs is like cutting or smoking or whatevah. just wanna feel the pain. cuz..... it's like.... you're not feeling that joy, the happiness that was in your life. and what else is there to feel, ya know? so you feel pain, lotz and lotz of pain just so that you can feel something, just to feel alive. and yeah, that's why we listne to sad love songs. and it's not unhealthy cuz it's better to feel something than nothing at all. apathy and just nothingness is REALLY bad cuz that's when u get to cutting and suicide and shit.
so yeah, she made me REALLY sad. reminded me of eighth grade year and the first semsester of freshman year. awwww damn i was so depressed. i mean, first Cass dumps me, but that HUUUUUGGGEEEE crush i had on holly kinda helped. then freshman year all hell fucking broke loose and i got way too deep into serious shit. sex, drugs, and suicide. hahaha. scary how i'm being serious about that. and yeah i was really really sad. lol. but i don't regret feeling so bad. i mean, maybe the cutting cuz i do have a scar now, but if it wasn't for all that shit, i wouldn't have learned all this stuff and would't be able to help anyone. and i'm not abandoing anyone anymore. no more! hahaha. ima stqrat with lee roy. next times he's on, ima im him.
so yeah, she made me REALLY sad. reminded me of eighth grade year and the first semsester of freshman year. awwww damn i was so depressed. i mean, first Cass dumps me, but that HUUUUUGGGEEEE crush i had on holly kinda helped. then freshman year all hell fucking broke loose and i got way too deep into serious shit. sex, drugs, and suicide. hahaha. scary how i'm being serious about that. and yeah i was really really sad. lol. but i don't regret feeling so bad. i mean, maybe the cutting cuz i do have a scar now, but if it wasn't for all that shit, i wouldn't have learned all this stuff and would't be able to help anyone. and i'm not abandoing anyone anymore. no more! hahaha. ima stqrat with lee roy. next times he's on, ima im him.