(no subject)
Title: Safety
Fandom: N/A
Characters/Pairings: N/A
Rating: PG
Word count: 280
Warning: None
Notes: Just a drabble that I wrote a while ago, not sure whether anyone will get it. That is if anyone reads it. I live in hope.
‘Shut up, I’m wrong, I know’
I know this hurts you.
It’s not hurting me as much as it should.
I told you that loved him. Well, to be more precise, I don’t love you.
I won’t ask you to understand. Even for me that’s too cruel. But I will ask you not to complain.
You say this is wrong. Perhaps. But who are you to decide between black and white? Have you ever heard of grey? I don’t know about you, but that grey area is where I live, it is the safe place. It is the only safe place nowadays.
Maybe you are right. You were always faithful. You never did me harm. I hold no love for you, but it is safe. Do I want your safety though? Or does the uncertainty and danger bring out a masochistic edge in me?
I’m surprised that you feel no sadistic pleasure at my feelings. You always did with others. Were you telling the truth then? Did you really love me?
And now we’re back here again. Your voice screams in my head. Your lips move, but I don’t hear your voice, I feel it within me.
One day we might speak again, but not now. I can’t deal with you now.
I feel a whoosh of air behind me as a door opens and an arm is flung around my shoulders.
Eyes widen in hurt and sorrow. I ask one more thing of you. Please realise that I didn’t have this planned.
I glance behind me and you’re gone.
Only we remain. Me and him.
His mouth opens and words like water spill out.
“Have you seen my girlfriend?”
fin.