*sigh*
FAIR WARNING: RANT COMING UP....sorry guys
Well it's summer....whoo hoo...I'm not very excited about it....mainly because I really don't have anything to look forward to except for school next semester...haha what a thing to look forward to...oh well.
So I'm sitting at work...of course I haven't seen a soul yet today and I probably won't for at least a couple more hours...this has got to be the easiest job in the history of the world....I wouldn't even call it a job....almost like a past-time...lol. I guess I shouldn't be complaining.
So Cheyenne leaves tomorrow...probably...she was sick this morning and I felt so bad for her and I had to leave her to come here and babysit a building.
Well I've been cleaning out my room like crazy...I mean throwing things away like crazy...I'm just sick of looking at all that stuff....the bad thing, is that things (as in childhood toys and collections that I've had since I was about 3) that have always meant something to me or at least I thought they meant something to me just don't anymore and it kinda made me angry looking at them...soo I took it all out of my room. I think dad put it down stairs because mom would pitch a fit if I actaully threw it away...but I'm sorry I just didn't want to see it anymore. I think I'm becoming more bitter than anything right now and I'm trying to mellow myself out some because if I don't by the end of the summer I'll just be angry and depressed...wow now that's something to look forward to.
I go for my dress fitting today...then again another reason why I hate my life right now(lol)more like frustration...not hate....I'm the fattest bridesmaid in this wedding right...so I order my dress to fit me...IT FIT...I promise...and well when it got here it was a size to small...sooo in addition to being on a very strict diet plan...the dress has to be let out from both side seams...oh it makes me sick. I cried...I'm going to loose all this weight...and I haven't even thought about eating anything other than what's part of my diet. I'm soo determined. oh it makes me sick but by the end of the summer I'm going to be thin and trim...and I can't wait.
Now the only thing that I have left to say is that...
~SHANE
I MISS YOU SOOOOO VERY MUCH!!
and
I LOVE YOU SOOOOO VERY MUCH!!
and
We need to maybe meet somewhere sometime....even if it's at like Wendy's in Wise for salads...lol...I love you
Well it's summer....whoo hoo...I'm not very excited about it....mainly because I really don't have anything to look forward to except for school next semester...haha what a thing to look forward to...oh well.
So I'm sitting at work...of course I haven't seen a soul yet today and I probably won't for at least a couple more hours...this has got to be the easiest job in the history of the world....I wouldn't even call it a job....almost like a past-time...lol. I guess I shouldn't be complaining.
So Cheyenne leaves tomorrow...probably...she was sick this morning and I felt so bad for her and I had to leave her to come here and babysit a building.
Well I've been cleaning out my room like crazy...I mean throwing things away like crazy...I'm just sick of looking at all that stuff....the bad thing, is that things (as in childhood toys and collections that I've had since I was about 3) that have always meant something to me or at least I thought they meant something to me just don't anymore and it kinda made me angry looking at them...soo I took it all out of my room. I think dad put it down stairs because mom would pitch a fit if I actaully threw it away...but I'm sorry I just didn't want to see it anymore. I think I'm becoming more bitter than anything right now and I'm trying to mellow myself out some because if I don't by the end of the summer I'll just be angry and depressed...wow now that's something to look forward to.
I go for my dress fitting today...then again another reason why I hate my life right now(lol)more like frustration...not hate....I'm the fattest bridesmaid in this wedding right...so I order my dress to fit me...IT FIT...I promise...and well when it got here it was a size to small...sooo in addition to being on a very strict diet plan...the dress has to be let out from both side seams...oh it makes me sick. I cried...I'm going to loose all this weight...and I haven't even thought about eating anything other than what's part of my diet. I'm soo determined. oh it makes me sick but by the end of the summer I'm going to be thin and trim...and I can't wait.
Now the only thing that I have left to say is that...
~SHANE
I MISS YOU SOOOOO VERY MUCH!!
and
I LOVE YOU SOOOOO VERY MUCH!!
and
We need to maybe meet somewhere sometime....even if it's at like Wendy's in Wise for salads...lol...I love you