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i could only tell my self things will be okay. but they wont. i seemed to have lost the security i once had, just something to fall back on. but now, it has disappeared, its like me on the edge of a cliff.. falling, and no one there to catch me. through the these past 18 years, i have learned so many life lessons. ofcourse, most ive learned the hard way. like for instance, i always thought that i had everything i wanted in life. and that i could get anything i want. well, guess what.. i DONT and i CANT. well.. not anymore. life lesson #2, being nice will not get you anywhere. seriously, as my friend, you can say i have been one of the nicest friends youd ever had. cause frankly, i bet you cannot think of anything bad that i have done against you. but recently, ive learned that being too nice, is not good at all. i always end up losing something. i have been nothing but good to you. what the fuck did i do wrong this time? what the hell did i do to deserve this, when all along, all ive been trying to do is help you and become a better person. this sucks. life lesson # 3. do not be so open to people or else you will become attached. well guess what, too fucking bad for me. life lesson #4, do not show your weakness, or else people will take advandtage of you. fuck, seriously i cant think anymore. there is so much hate towards you. but at the same time, i still feel it in my stomach. life lesson #5, you can never be so certain of what you have. life lesson #6 you can never be happy. life lesson #7, time is sooo fucking important, as it can ruin almost anything, events and whatnot in your fucking life. sometimes, i wish that you had given me more of your time. but at the same time, i wish i can say the same thing about me. most important last life lesson for today, is: you will regret most of your decisions. that, i can pretty much say right now, is a BIG one. well fucking see about this one.