it's 4am, i'm awake and freaking out again, welcome to the world...
is it strange that i am almost more shocked when i hear people openly express anti-dude sentiments? i can't decide.
i am watching the number one ladies' detective agency lately and on that show there is a lot of 'men are/do x' wherein x is never a very nice thing and it just keeps leaving me stunned. and then i realize that i'm stunned and my very own reaction to my reaction is to be more stunned. what to do...
when people say horrible, evil, hateful shit about women, i know how to deal with it. i know what to do, i know how to feel. i'm almost used to it. i hear it all the time. i am, after all, a woman myself. but when it's sexist shit about men it's almost the most shocking thing of all, like my brain can't handle it, i'm so stuck on no, but people love dudes! i don't even know what to do with it!
i know how to deal with all different kinds of ladypains, heck i even know how to work with the more subtle, systemic "boys don't cry" kind of dude-damaging patriarchy, but when someone expresses outright, undisguised man-hatred, i have NO IDEA how to react to it! i don't love that it makes me FEEL more (though it's possibly not more but just different and that's why it is more noticeable to me) but it is really getting to me and i do not know what to do about these angry reactions i am having!
and part of this is really making me feel like kindof a shitty fake feminist; oh look, jessica cares more about Teh Dudes, wah wah, poor them, BUT WHAT ABOUT THE MENZ?!?!
but it's not that IT'S NOT!! i promise you it's not. i just care. period. end of sentence. i promise...
it's bothering me!!
i am watching the number one ladies' detective agency lately and on that show there is a lot of 'men are/do x' wherein x is never a very nice thing and it just keeps leaving me stunned. and then i realize that i'm stunned and my very own reaction to my reaction is to be more stunned. what to do...
when people say horrible, evil, hateful shit about women, i know how to deal with it. i know what to do, i know how to feel. i'm almost used to it. i hear it all the time. i am, after all, a woman myself. but when it's sexist shit about men it's almost the most shocking thing of all, like my brain can't handle it, i'm so stuck on no, but people love dudes! i don't even know what to do with it!
i know how to deal with all different kinds of ladypains, heck i even know how to work with the more subtle, systemic "boys don't cry" kind of dude-damaging patriarchy, but when someone expresses outright, undisguised man-hatred, i have NO IDEA how to react to it! i don't love that it makes me FEEL more (though it's possibly not more but just different and that's why it is more noticeable to me) but it is really getting to me and i do not know what to do about these angry reactions i am having!
and part of this is really making me feel like kindof a shitty fake feminist; oh look, jessica cares more about Teh Dudes, wah wah, poor them, BUT WHAT ABOUT THE MENZ?!?!
but it's not that IT'S NOT!! i promise you it's not. i just care. period. end of sentence. i promise...
it's bothering me!!