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today was much better than yesterday. i am not really pissed off today i am kinda mellow. there is this one thing though, the fact that i have lost two people in my life just really kicked in today. i didn't realize i was going to loose them, it just happened and there was really nothing i could do about it. in case this will make any difference, i wrote a poem, it is to both of you, but about one in particular. you should know who you are just by reading the last line of the poem. so here goes....
(it won't be the best, it still needs work, but i need your criticizm so leave me a comment on how i can fix it/make it better)
Your wink
A while ago
I lost someone
I didn't worry about it
Until I realized we were really done
I thought it would all blow over
And it was all just a phase
But you don't care anymore
And we continue our lives in a daze
I wish I knew
How to get you back
Or just rewind everything
And make time backtrack
I really miss you
But how do I get you to see
I can't talk to you
And this is not what I want us to be
So I sit by myself
For five minutes a day
Just thinking about
What, to you, I want to say
I still don’t know
What I want to say to you
But I don’t think you'd listen anyway
Even if it was all true
So that's my dilemma
Maybe you get it, maybe you don't
But if you ever think I hate you
Just remember that I can't and I won't
I shouldn't be saying this
I shouldn't be that forgiving
Because I know that you
Won't be that willing
Maybe I have some hope
That one day it will all be over
And that my life will no longer
Be a blur
Until then I wait
And everyday I think
And I can picture how when you used see me
You would always wink
thanx to those who leave a comment by helping me fix this mess....
~Theresa~