heres to you mother

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i know that you love me in your own special way
i know you want whats best for me
one day i will understand about time and life
but i wont see it the way you do
sorry if you feel that i am stepping on you
to get what i want
but thats the way it must be
if you could really understand
whos really stepping on who
i never asked for this
i never asked to hold the weight of this family
i know you know thats this is for the best
but why... why must you play with my head
what do you think that this will accomplish?
its only makes me sad that you do this
i now begin to see
that i am in control
i am my own personal master to my world
not you
you are just the counseler
i never ment to hurt you
i wish money was never involved
i only wanted to help my family
but now i want to help myself
i leave this place for another
one to call my own
and if you cant handle what i am doing
and will do in time
then please... keep it to yourself
its now someone elses turn to help
one and two that owe more than what i ever will
so let the light shine down differently
for my day has come
my love for you always
but enough is enough
i didnt put you in your situation
only you did
i wont live like this
and i will be tight with funds
but its worth the pressure
to live my life
and see who i am
its not about you
its not about them
this is about me
and my own selfish needs
i thank you always
i love you always
please remember this mother.