when you wake
when i woke up this morning i had ( and still do ) this emotional high. i felt like i was on cloud 9 and 10. i dont know if it has to do with the person that i saw last night of if the powers are cleaning my soul and eyes once again. its kinda uneasy cause it feels so real. this settling emotion that all will finally be ok or i finaly have enough strengh to conquer the demons that like to hang out with me. lol. i dont know... sometimes there cool but there presence is getting stale.
jeez my eyes are tired but my mind is so calm. it feels like i "WOKE" up. all the built up energy that i had in me has left and now im empty... so to speak.
i miss my dear erin.
we got another baby girl. its so cool. i love it. shes so liitle and tiny but shes mean. lol. its just neat.
i just want someone to enjoy my touch. i love to touch ppl. im all about the energy of life. to feel ppl and life gives me a boost. its such a wonderful high. like at the party i was already "drunk" of the vibes and sparks of the souls and music, the smiles and laughes. i adore that about humans. those that give themselves to lifes pure energy.
i want to cry... just a good aniamlistic cry.
god i sound like an emtional basket case... :-) ... im not sad but im kinda fried again. i cant wait to be in my house. no one really knows what this means to me. they do but theres more ( when is there not more to the story ) i... i ... i just cant belive that i am finally doing this. me. like everyone that i know, ive gone through so much and its like this is my reward. i know its going to be hard but this is my present. thats why i want to cry... its finally happening but i still feel cautious cause i know anything can happen so i just go at it one day at a time.
its a flip... i smile about it but its still so surreal. huh.. i think when its all said and done im going to sit, smoke my own mini blunt and drink rum and cokes and have my own personal party. my other side is a loner. :-)
jeez my eyes are tired but my mind is so calm. it feels like i "WOKE" up. all the built up energy that i had in me has left and now im empty... so to speak.
i miss my dear erin.
we got another baby girl. its so cool. i love it. shes so liitle and tiny but shes mean. lol. its just neat.
i just want someone to enjoy my touch. i love to touch ppl. im all about the energy of life. to feel ppl and life gives me a boost. its such a wonderful high. like at the party i was already "drunk" of the vibes and sparks of the souls and music, the smiles and laughes. i adore that about humans. those that give themselves to lifes pure energy.
i want to cry... just a good aniamlistic cry.
god i sound like an emtional basket case... :-) ... im not sad but im kinda fried again. i cant wait to be in my house. no one really knows what this means to me. they do but theres more ( when is there not more to the story ) i... i ... i just cant belive that i am finally doing this. me. like everyone that i know, ive gone through so much and its like this is my reward. i know its going to be hard but this is my present. thats why i want to cry... its finally happening but i still feel cautious cause i know anything can happen so i just go at it one day at a time.
its a flip... i smile about it but its still so surreal. huh.. i think when its all said and done im going to sit, smoke my own mini blunt and drink rum and cokes and have my own personal party. my other side is a loner. :-)