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Had a wonderful night last night, and slept very well. Sky actually slept in the same banket and cuddled with me. Woke up less disoriented and groggy, but still wasn't impressed with the weather, so I had him drive me to work when he got up. I know he doesn't like driving me in that early, but as he said, it does give him an extra hour when he wouldn't usually have it in the winter.
Looking through old journal entries and am surprised they still can hurt as much as they do. Just remembering those times when I couldn't have him were bad enough. And the beginning of our relationship was a complete disaster. I'm so glad we've moved on from those times and are closer than we had ever been. Just looking at his texts and messages from Korea hurt- he sounded so excited to see me. I was expecting something different from what I got when I got back. But I worked hard. And persisted. And finally, finally...
We're getting married next month! I'm really so so so so so excited! I just can't wait! It will be after a stressful weekend, and another stressful day or two, but I will be okay. I hope. I have no idea how I'm going to sleep with him gone. And on one hand, I hope he calls/texts while he's away, but on the other hand, I hope he enjoys himself and doesn't bother with me. I know I have a tendancy of rambling on that annoys him.
I should get up and clean but I'm so tired. I want him to be happy, though!
Looking through old journal entries and am surprised they still can hurt as much as they do. Just remembering those times when I couldn't have him were bad enough. And the beginning of our relationship was a complete disaster. I'm so glad we've moved on from those times and are closer than we had ever been. Just looking at his texts and messages from Korea hurt- he sounded so excited to see me. I was expecting something different from what I got when I got back. But I worked hard. And persisted. And finally, finally...
We're getting married next month! I'm really so so so so so excited! I just can't wait! It will be after a stressful weekend, and another stressful day or two, but I will be okay. I hope. I have no idea how I'm going to sleep with him gone. And on one hand, I hope he calls/texts while he's away, but on the other hand, I hope he enjoys himself and doesn't bother with me. I know I have a tendancy of rambling on that annoys him.
I should get up and clean but I'm so tired. I want him to be happy, though!