Squirrly
Well, I'm finally home and not completely sure how I feel about it. I'm mostly happy to be back but I'm finding I lack motivation and I'm getting antsy. I was told it would be weird going back to normal life but I didn't think it would be this bad. Plus, it doesn't help that I'm missing A. like mad. I woke up this morning with his name on my lips until I realized that I was at home and he's on the opposite side of the country. I don't even know for sure when I'll next see him which is making things harder because I think this could be something really great if we work at it. At work, when I go back, I basically have my co-workers old job in the bag but I don't know if I want to stay. When I was in Afghanistan I was sure that staying in Vancouver was what I wanted but now I find myself just wanting to leave again. *sigh* I'm sure everything will work out and I do have a month to think about everything. For now, I have Christmas to look forward to. Hopefully that will get me through.