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While I've made some really big decisions in last few months to better myself it seems as if nothing truly helps. I can't stray away from the things in life that really need to be cut out, the things that are causing negative effects in my life. It's not by choice anymore either. What I say doesn't matter anymore. The better part of this summer has been spent on searching. I've become unfocused with who I am and I really need to spend more time getting my shit together. I dropped out IB and chose my Valley classes, I have to admit that was really hard to do.
With all this I still can't sleep. My head is getting worse. It's a constant, something I can rely upon. Something is eating at me and I can't seem to figure out what that thing is. It shows up in my subconscious. Even sleep isn't peaceful anymore. My doctor gave me sleep pills.
With all this I still can't sleep. My head is getting worse. It's a constant, something I can rely upon. Something is eating at me and I can't seem to figure out what that thing is. It shows up in my subconscious. Even sleep isn't peaceful anymore. My doctor gave me sleep pills.