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[tre_money23]

Its weird how one talk can change your whole perspective on someone
its weird how no matter how much you want something to happen
in the end you know its best if nothing happens

its weird how when you think your doing the right thing
you can end up hurting someone in the long run

its weird how no matter how many times we expect things to change
they never do
and unless you do something about it
they never will

today is a new day
every day i have to tell myself the same thing
its Christ who validates me
no one else
and until i can really grasp that concept i'll never grow

its weird how much i care about what everyone around me thinks about me
and i'm always getting on other peoples cases about the same thing

even tho everything is "ok"
i'm not happy i'm not even content with where i'm at
it seems like nothing will ever work out
no matter how "good" things get it won't ever be good enough
no matter how much i can trust my friends
deep down inside i feel like they'll always leave me
whether it be a few months when they go to college
or a couple years down the road
nothing last that long
is it worth it?