How to Say Good Bye
I dont know what else to do. Ive made it perfectly clear that I dont want to talk to him but he doesnt get it. It would kill the one I love. Gosh what have I done? I wish I could take somethings back but I wonder how my life would be different.
If I were to have gone out with him instead of the one I love, then I might not be planning on going off to school next year in Germany? Or would I be looking forward to spending a whole summer with him instead? He is always pleading with me to stay up late and talk with him and says he loves me. I dont believe it. My heart is easy to win over but my brain knows better. Maybe if things were different, I would be falling for him instead of the one I love. Gosh, what have I done? If I tell the one I love now he will never be able to trust me ever again. What will happen when he finds out? That I kissed someone else behind his back. That I shared these very lips with someone who is sharing pieces of my heart with him.
What am I talking about? I dont mean any of this, do I? The one I love would be crushed. I dont know how to explain any of this. Gosh, my world is so messed up. I want to go in my bed, but it has been stained with our love and I have no where left to go. My heart has lost its one true home and is now nothing but a wondering nomad. I dont even know how to begin to pick up the pieces to try and sort out the rest of my life.
Maybe he is right, maybe I am screwed up. Maybe I have things all tangled in my head. How could I do this if I really loved someone. Gosh, what am I saying?
I love him. But do I also love someone else? I will never truely know.
If I were to have gone out with him instead of the one I love, then I might not be planning on going off to school next year in Germany? Or would I be looking forward to spending a whole summer with him instead? He is always pleading with me to stay up late and talk with him and says he loves me. I dont believe it. My heart is easy to win over but my brain knows better. Maybe if things were different, I would be falling for him instead of the one I love. Gosh, what have I done? If I tell the one I love now he will never be able to trust me ever again. What will happen when he finds out? That I kissed someone else behind his back. That I shared these very lips with someone who is sharing pieces of my heart with him.
What am I talking about? I dont mean any of this, do I? The one I love would be crushed. I dont know how to explain any of this. Gosh, my world is so messed up. I want to go in my bed, but it has been stained with our love and I have no where left to go. My heart has lost its one true home and is now nothing but a wondering nomad. I dont even know how to begin to pick up the pieces to try and sort out the rest of my life.
Maybe he is right, maybe I am screwed up. Maybe I have things all tangled in my head. How could I do this if I really loved someone. Gosh, what am I saying?
I love him. But do I also love someone else? I will never truely know.