Death by self-awareness OR This is half assed, but I'm tired, back off.

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I often chafe at new things. This is weird because my personality profile says I crave new things constantly. I always thought, "I was happy before so why should they change now?" When really I was chafing a little before the change and my false perception kept me from seeing that. I have a real problem, like everyone else I've heard, with living in the moment. I don't want to blame the news media, but it is the crux of our entire culture, where it's either talking about the past (he said this she did this) or the future (something is going to happen, soon!) and the only time it's just the present is when something is on fire. Fairly bleak, although if they were to just shoot trees or a guy washing dishes only vegan Buddhists and me would watch it. A little off topic, but just think that the only time you know you truly are is the present, enjoy it. So as a good friend once told me:

"Just live life, dude. Go natural. Stop trying. It'll happen."