April 1st
You know what I just realized?
I've never had time to have a life. I've always had something going on to use as an excuse on why I didn't have one. Well I've decided it's time to have myself a life.
I miss my friends, I really do... I'm sorry to those of you who my life pushed away. It's ridiculous, but true.
I love you Amanda Sue, you are and always will be my loser buddy = ) even though you aren't a loser. And Stefanie, I suck, I'm sorry I've fucked up so many times and you've always been there to make me feel better. Ada, you've become my best friend, we are already pretty much married, HAHA... Josh, you probably aren't reading this but yeah, you just opened up my eyes and made me believe in people, in love, and you've given me a new found appreciation for back roads = P and now I know that noone is replaceable (hopefully you'll remember that and remember me---I'm still here just 5 minutes away), and Amzel, you know exactly how I feel and know exactly what to say to make me feel better. Those are my best friends, the people who have changed my life in ways noone else ever will. There are few of you but you all mean more to me than you'll ever know.
NOW, in whats going on in my life? I'm going to go job hunting once again, but this time for REAL jobs. Someplace I know exactly what I'll be doing daily and I'll have a set schedule and know exactly what time I'll be leaving. LOL, I just need a dependable job that isn't gonna force me into the crazy house. But like I've already said, it's time to get my life together. Because basically I've got the building blocks to a good life. A good family, a car that runs (lol) friends that care about me, future plans, and a good head on my shoulders, so this great life I dream of isn't too far behind.
I miss high school, those were great days, lol.... For real, those of you who are still there, take care of those days while you still have them.
ERG... I'm so burnt, lol, dern tanning bed, but OHHH well, just think in a couple of days this red will fade away and I'll be hot once again, = )... Well I mean unless you have a thing for florescent skin, if so, hey I'm your guy, haha...I need new music, my stuff is getting boring. Since Josh I've gotten into country quite a bit, HAHA, I'm developing quite a nice collection of Kenny Chesney, Johnny Cash, Garth Brooks, Dixie Chicks and Toby Keith songs. But yeah, I need some help with my music. I need help with my car too... JEEZ, today it took me like 5 mins just to get the damned thing started, I need a tune up, but I'm cheap and I hate my car sooo I don't wanna spent more money to get it fixed I just spent like 300 on something wrong with the back brakes.
I went to taco bell tonight, haha, I was hungry and no other places were open, and hey if anyone needs a job, their reciept says they are hiring,,,, HAHA. I spent all day with my friends, it was a great day... Me and Ada went out and got my tux this morning for her prom and then we went and ordered flowers, and jeez the child doesn't know anything about flowers. The lady came up and said what kind of flowers do you want, Ada's response? "Umm... Pretty Ones?"
Yeah so I picked out her flowers. Lol, Her prom is Saturday, she seems excited about it. I'm just happy I get to spend a whole day with her because I never get to hang out with her anymore. But I'm making her leave the prom early, well, not making her, she wants to go.... But yeah, I got her a friend's ID and we are gonna go out to some clubs after prom, and then she's gonna come stay over here... Fun fun times = ) She is still dead set on stealing Josh's Ram though... so yeah if you're truck comes up missing, I'd check out Franklin Furnace, cause Ada's got it. My head is killing me though, and I bought Texas Chainsaw Massacre so I'm gonna take some Tylenol, lay down, and watch it. I don't work til 7:30 tomorrow so WHOO a day to sleep in, HAHA. My schedule is crazy this week, I was off Monday, worked 11-4 tuesday, 7:30-2 wednesday, 7:30-2 thursday, 9:30-4/6-10:30 Friday, off saturday and then 4-2 sunday... Yes thats right only 38 hours this week with both jobs combined HOLY SHIT, I'm in heaven, my body feels soo rested. But watch next week it'll be back up to like 60 hours again. I kinda wish I worked more this week, cause I took the time off for a reason, and the reason kinda doesn't want me anymore, so all I'm doing is trying to do things to keep my mind off him. But oh well, it's still good stuff having the time away from work. CRAZINESS... But yeah, for real I have to go to bed
Good night everyone
Trav
I've never had time to have a life. I've always had something going on to use as an excuse on why I didn't have one. Well I've decided it's time to have myself a life.
I miss my friends, I really do... I'm sorry to those of you who my life pushed away. It's ridiculous, but true.
I love you Amanda Sue, you are and always will be my loser buddy = ) even though you aren't a loser. And Stefanie, I suck, I'm sorry I've fucked up so many times and you've always been there to make me feel better. Ada, you've become my best friend, we are already pretty much married, HAHA... Josh, you probably aren't reading this but yeah, you just opened up my eyes and made me believe in people, in love, and you've given me a new found appreciation for back roads = P and now I know that noone is replaceable (hopefully you'll remember that and remember me---I'm still here just 5 minutes away), and Amzel, you know exactly how I feel and know exactly what to say to make me feel better. Those are my best friends, the people who have changed my life in ways noone else ever will. There are few of you but you all mean more to me than you'll ever know.
NOW, in whats going on in my life? I'm going to go job hunting once again, but this time for REAL jobs. Someplace I know exactly what I'll be doing daily and I'll have a set schedule and know exactly what time I'll be leaving. LOL, I just need a dependable job that isn't gonna force me into the crazy house. But like I've already said, it's time to get my life together. Because basically I've got the building blocks to a good life. A good family, a car that runs (lol) friends that care about me, future plans, and a good head on my shoulders, so this great life I dream of isn't too far behind.
I miss high school, those were great days, lol.... For real, those of you who are still there, take care of those days while you still have them.
ERG... I'm so burnt, lol, dern tanning bed, but OHHH well, just think in a couple of days this red will fade away and I'll be hot once again, = )... Well I mean unless you have a thing for florescent skin, if so, hey I'm your guy, haha...I need new music, my stuff is getting boring. Since Josh I've gotten into country quite a bit, HAHA, I'm developing quite a nice collection of Kenny Chesney, Johnny Cash, Garth Brooks, Dixie Chicks and Toby Keith songs. But yeah, I need some help with my music. I need help with my car too... JEEZ, today it took me like 5 mins just to get the damned thing started, I need a tune up, but I'm cheap and I hate my car sooo I don't wanna spent more money to get it fixed I just spent like 300 on something wrong with the back brakes.
I went to taco bell tonight, haha, I was hungry and no other places were open, and hey if anyone needs a job, their reciept says they are hiring,,,, HAHA. I spent all day with my friends, it was a great day... Me and Ada went out and got my tux this morning for her prom and then we went and ordered flowers, and jeez the child doesn't know anything about flowers. The lady came up and said what kind of flowers do you want, Ada's response? "Umm... Pretty Ones?"
Yeah so I picked out her flowers. Lol, Her prom is Saturday, she seems excited about it. I'm just happy I get to spend a whole day with her because I never get to hang out with her anymore. But I'm making her leave the prom early, well, not making her, she wants to go.... But yeah, I got her a friend's ID and we are gonna go out to some clubs after prom, and then she's gonna come stay over here... Fun fun times = ) She is still dead set on stealing Josh's Ram though... so yeah if you're truck comes up missing, I'd check out Franklin Furnace, cause Ada's got it. My head is killing me though, and I bought Texas Chainsaw Massacre so I'm gonna take some Tylenol, lay down, and watch it. I don't work til 7:30 tomorrow so WHOO a day to sleep in, HAHA. My schedule is crazy this week, I was off Monday, worked 11-4 tuesday, 7:30-2 wednesday, 7:30-2 thursday, 9:30-4/6-10:30 Friday, off saturday and then 4-2 sunday... Yes thats right only 38 hours this week with both jobs combined HOLY SHIT, I'm in heaven, my body feels soo rested. But watch next week it'll be back up to like 60 hours again. I kinda wish I worked more this week, cause I took the time off for a reason, and the reason kinda doesn't want me anymore, so all I'm doing is trying to do things to keep my mind off him. But oh well, it's still good stuff having the time away from work. CRAZINESS... But yeah, for real I have to go to bed
Good night everyone
Trav