I think I finally get me

[traviswannabe]

So recently I have had issues staying happy and I think I finally know why, because I always try to give everything to everyone I can around me even people I don't like, I will help anyone as far as I can and always have given up my own happiness so someone else can feel great even if for just one night or one minute, no matter the cost on me...i

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[riah85]

well this is the first time ive been on lj in a long time so i'm going to explain something to you. i love you with every once of my soul. i know i hurt you in so many ways when i came back to cali and i a more sorry for that then you will ever know and truely understand. this is one thing that will never change and that is that i love you. you keep telling me just a stepping stone in life but that is so far from the truth. i've told you so many times that i want you and i to have a life together. and i will keep telling you that until you understand. i never said women were easy to understand sometimes i dont even understand us. as i said lastnight if i could change the fact that i came back to cali i would but sense i cant all i can do is pray that you decide us together is completely what you want. i know you love me i have no doubt about that and i never will. like i said that will never be in question. the QUESTION is what are we doing????? Leah is right about one thing in her comment i am stubbern and i do get what i want. in this situation though its hard for me to get what i want sense what i want directly relys on you deciding what you want. i know i keep saying the same thing but how else am i suppose to explain that i dont hold on to men in my life unless they actually mean something to me. and you dont just mean something but you mean everything!!! well i love you and dont ever forget that.