Life as I know it is comming down on me.
SO much shit i dont want to deal with. How can i put feelings on hold. how can i know if my judgements are wrong. I have a girlfriend. Kristen morgan. It seems that i have fallen for this girl. This amazing girl that makes me smile just seeing her walking towards me down the hall. Im torn between my love for her and my friends. Its hard trying to make everyone happy. And when something is wrong it would be nice to know what it is because I cant fix whats wrong if i dont know what it is. sometimes i think i would just be better off without a girlfriend because then i could focus most my life on my friends like i did before i went out with kristen. I live off my friends and girlfriends. And it is appearent that they need me more than i could give at the time. All i wanted to do was hang out with kristen allll day. I want to see her constantly and when i dont i get sad because i miss her. I dont know what to do anymore. FBA is comming up. Taylor better not fall this time. We have a kick ass show and we r gonna be great. Im trying out for all county band for the tuba. I hope i make it. Its hard though. I cant play super d flat. thats just too damn hi on a tuba. Im gonna try my best. My grades are a lot better this year. Or at least they better be. I want to make it into a decent university. well i guess ill wrap it up here. Not to fond of writing today.