Bout time to update

[traumadrama06]

It's been a while since i have updated. A lot has happened since. I have been to D.C. with the band. It sucked ass. Thats all i have to say about that. Nance is well.............. nance. Caitlin is great. Sometimes i dont know if i could live with my life being the way it is without her. She is so compforting. I can really tell her anything. All i can say is that some things change and some things dont. I really need a girl now. Im goin outta my fucking mind. im sick of just being friends. I need more. I want a full relationship with all benefits like maybe a chance at love. im acting weird latley. Liking people i shouldnt. Like my friends and best friends. Not cait or nance but other people. I wonder if jessica is a good kisser. Nothing new for me though. i always wonder what someone kisses like. never really find out either. I wonder too much. In places i prolly shouldnt be. But oh well. Gotta take chances sometimes. I mean doesnt everyone live on "what if". Anyways. maybe this is all just a stupid fucked up phase im goin through. I dont care. Sometimes u just have to say what the fuck and see where it leads u. I had the chance to ha ng out with nance today. She was a bitch today. Thats too bad . she was still kool to hang out with her. And its weird because i miss her and then we hang out and i get mad at her and everything but then i leave and i miss her again. She will always be my big sister and i love her. I am now at taylors house. For the first time ever and im staying the night. Me and him and nance and hopefully Jessica r goin to the movies tomorrow night. This is suppose to be a good thing. We will see. I miss love. I hope that that one person who is out there for me finds me soon. Caitlin and Sunny and I went to wally world the other day. It was fun. We ate cake and ice cream and played PS2 at the rent a center. LoL we r the trio.
I think im done for now. Love yall. LATA