Where to begin??
The last few weeks have been tramatic, enlightening, devastating, and scary. Tim and I have been on a rollercoaster and now it's definately over. He will be a friend, but I'm disappointed that he didn't believe in me.
Tim broke up with me because he wanted to go back to his ex. Then realized his mistake and begged my forgiveness. Then, last week I was attacked by someone I thought was harmless and safe. Tim blamed me for putting myself in that situation. Break up with me once, shame on you, break up with me twice, shame on me.
Last Friday night, a man I thought was my friend took advantage of me during an alchohol blackout. I've never had one before and he might have put something in my drink. This guy, Arnie, is a disgusting freak and I would never do anything with him, but I woke up in his house with his nasty creepy self all over me. In all my years of partying and drinking, I've never been out of control of who I go home with. I didn't even drink that much. He is a predator, and I was violated. Not raped in the literal sense, but definately sexually assaulted, as I would never even consider kissing or consenting to being groped by this nasty troll. He took it upon himself to violate me when I was in an incompasitated state. I told Tim, and he blamed me, as I blamed myself at first. so, Tim dumped me and kicked out of his house because of this. However. I think, as terrible and disgusting as this event was, everything happens for a reason. This was a catatlyst for me to move on and be on my own again. Tim said he was repulsed by me, but recently changed his mind and realizes that Arnie getting on me was not my fault. However, we have decided that we are not meant to be a couple. We're too different. I made too many compramises and was beginning to forget who I was. I was losing myself in him.
Arnie does need to have his balls cut off. I finally filed a police report today. I was too embarrassed before today. The support of my friends and family convinced me. Even though I was drunk, and I don't have the best reputation in this little town, (I do love sex) he assaulted me. right after I got home from filing the report, Tim called me and said that he took back every horrible thing he said about me. He will believe me now and our friendship will be strong. the universe and the goddess be praised. He was the only one I worried about thinking badly of me. I do care about him. We will never be a couple again, but I do care about him and it killed me that he was repulsed by me. My decision to report this incident lifted the negative feelings of both of us.
I need to find some other social activitives than going to the fucking bar. It's not healthy. I need to find some pagan friends to hang out with.
Tim didn't stick up for me. Didn't go and kick some ass for me right away. That's when I realized that he isn't the boy for me.
I need somewhere to spend my free time other than drinking. I kicked coke. I kicked drinking after college, I can kick it again, or at least go back to just social drinking. Where are the people like me here? Where do I look?
Lansing pagans and weirdos I need your support, friendship and help.
Wendy
517-543-1795 home
517-242-0880 cell
Please give me somewhere to hang out and have fun. Y'all in Grand Ledge, stay away from from Arnie with the Limo.
Tim broke up with me because he wanted to go back to his ex. Then realized his mistake and begged my forgiveness. Then, last week I was attacked by someone I thought was harmless and safe. Tim blamed me for putting myself in that situation. Break up with me once, shame on you, break up with me twice, shame on me.
Last Friday night, a man I thought was my friend took advantage of me during an alchohol blackout. I've never had one before and he might have put something in my drink. This guy, Arnie, is a disgusting freak and I would never do anything with him, but I woke up in his house with his nasty creepy self all over me. In all my years of partying and drinking, I've never been out of control of who I go home with. I didn't even drink that much. He is a predator, and I was violated. Not raped in the literal sense, but definately sexually assaulted, as I would never even consider kissing or consenting to being groped by this nasty troll. He took it upon himself to violate me when I was in an incompasitated state. I told Tim, and he blamed me, as I blamed myself at first. so, Tim dumped me and kicked out of his house because of this. However. I think, as terrible and disgusting as this event was, everything happens for a reason. This was a catatlyst for me to move on and be on my own again. Tim said he was repulsed by me, but recently changed his mind and realizes that Arnie getting on me was not my fault. However, we have decided that we are not meant to be a couple. We're too different. I made too many compramises and was beginning to forget who I was. I was losing myself in him.
Arnie does need to have his balls cut off. I finally filed a police report today. I was too embarrassed before today. The support of my friends and family convinced me. Even though I was drunk, and I don't have the best reputation in this little town, (I do love sex) he assaulted me. right after I got home from filing the report, Tim called me and said that he took back every horrible thing he said about me. He will believe me now and our friendship will be strong. the universe and the goddess be praised. He was the only one I worried about thinking badly of me. I do care about him. We will never be a couple again, but I do care about him and it killed me that he was repulsed by me. My decision to report this incident lifted the negative feelings of both of us.
I need to find some other social activitives than going to the fucking bar. It's not healthy. I need to find some pagan friends to hang out with.
Tim didn't stick up for me. Didn't go and kick some ass for me right away. That's when I realized that he isn't the boy for me.
I need somewhere to spend my free time other than drinking. I kicked coke. I kicked drinking after college, I can kick it again, or at least go back to just social drinking. Where are the people like me here? Where do I look?
Lansing pagans and weirdos I need your support, friendship and help.
Wendy
517-543-1795 home
517-242-0880 cell
Please give me somewhere to hang out and have fun. Y'all in Grand Ledge, stay away from from Arnie with the Limo.