...don't barf on the keyboard...
i have a lot to say but i am not too sure how i should say it.
there's a lot that i am feeling.
a lot, a lot.
and i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.
i'm worried, excited, stressed, happy, anxious, and probably every other feeling in the world.
but mostly worried.
and all of this is giving me a headache.
for some reason, it's just really different with him.
and i'm praying to god, in a non literal way, that this will work out.
and i dont mean to make this a whole entry about my relationship with someone, but it probably will be.
my parents are really strict and i come with a lot of rules and a cell phone call from my parents every two seconds.
i wouldn't want to put up with me.
but he does. and it's sweet of him to, but at the same time i feel incredibly guilty that i can't just go out and i can't just go to his place and see a movie.
there's just a lot of motive behind my parents behavior.
ok, if i had three wishes, i would use them all to wish that everything between the triangle of me, my parents and him would work. i would wish three times just to make sure that it really did come true.
my parents totally like him, don't get me wrong, but i'm asking for a little more freedom.
that's a lot to ask considering the fact that i have a tendency to lie and i lie horribly.
i even hate to lie, it gives me a huge guilty conscience.
that's beside the point.
the point is that i messed up tonight, i know i did.
i find myself at fault and i feel really bad for it.
he's not making me lie, and i dont want my parents to think that.
i want this to work.
please work.
i hate it when situations are not in my favor or if they are out of my control.
sadly, this is both.
at least i'm pretty sure it's both, it may just be the latter.
but that's what parents do i guess..they control your life until you move out.
i'm waiting to talk to my dad..he's on some business call at 9 at night on a sunday.
i already talked to my mom and it went well i think? at least i havent gotten any punishment yet? knock on wood.
i feel really good.
really, really good.
p.s. dan and little brohem philip have the same birthday. march 16th
there's a lot that i am feeling.
a lot, a lot.
and i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.
i'm worried, excited, stressed, happy, anxious, and probably every other feeling in the world.
but mostly worried.
and all of this is giving me a headache.
for some reason, it's just really different with him.
and i'm praying to god, in a non literal way, that this will work out.
and i dont mean to make this a whole entry about my relationship with someone, but it probably will be.
my parents are really strict and i come with a lot of rules and a cell phone call from my parents every two seconds.
i wouldn't want to put up with me.
but he does. and it's sweet of him to, but at the same time i feel incredibly guilty that i can't just go out and i can't just go to his place and see a movie.
there's just a lot of motive behind my parents behavior.
ok, if i had three wishes, i would use them all to wish that everything between the triangle of me, my parents and him would work. i would wish three times just to make sure that it really did come true.
my parents totally like him, don't get me wrong, but i'm asking for a little more freedom.
that's a lot to ask considering the fact that i have a tendency to lie and i lie horribly.
i even hate to lie, it gives me a huge guilty conscience.
that's beside the point.
the point is that i messed up tonight, i know i did.
i find myself at fault and i feel really bad for it.
he's not making me lie, and i dont want my parents to think that.
i want this to work.
please work.
i hate it when situations are not in my favor or if they are out of my control.
sadly, this is both.
at least i'm pretty sure it's both, it may just be the latter.
but that's what parents do i guess..they control your life until you move out.
i'm waiting to talk to my dad..he's on some business call at 9 at night on a sunday.
i already talked to my mom and it went well i think? at least i havent gotten any punishment yet? knock on wood.
i feel really good.
really, really good.
p.s. dan and little brohem philip have the same birthday. march 16th