Cleaning out my metaphorical poem closet.
"Pencils"
It's midnight and I'm gutting myself out
I can't find my hands, it's dark and my mouth's thick
Feels like my skins on fire...and no one wants to touch it
Love makes you learn, lies make your love devout
There's plenty of room in your arms for the masses
The encircling of flesh and bone
I'm stumbling over the staircase, still alone
Waiting on the carpet as the haze passes
Unaware of what I hear or see
Blind to the bodies entertwined and warm
Still waiting for this idea to concrete in my mind
But all I know is you're not here with me
I'm too belligerent to care
"So, how did you end up here
Did they forget about you, too?"
And I find I'm talking to air
"Canine"
I'm alive when you're touching me
My heart beats faster when you wrench me down
Piece of mind? or pieces of memories lost and found?
I'm so alive when you're screaming that you've got to change me
Truth be told, I like the run around
Why is this violent argument
So deeply rolled in our own resentment?
I've held stronger than this ground
Shown you things you may not want to see
But you've steeped all those lovely nothings
Held on to your forgotten... anything
Just to make sure you've got that sympathy
You're a lush and a pretty liar
And those eyes are shallow
those sensual lips are weak and hollow
Become pain quenched by desire.
"Abstractly blatant"
I love you, as I did watching that uneventful and enchanting summer's day fading into night.I savored the refreshing way your rich smile filled me as the golden orb of the sun slid behind the horizon, darkening the sky to purple twilight And caught the glimmer of your blue eyes, haunting as the sea Stars, they seemed, captured even behind the rheum of those eyes That glimmered so well with the clearly visible stars of that hour and it's essence I lost myself inside your whole being, contentedly severing all ties You combined with these shimmering globes, holding your own stellar presence Those sparkling diamonds which had once been so far, felt as though they belonged to we two Have you given me the stars? Or have you lifted me high enough so I may pluck one of my choice Did I tell you how to love me? Or did you know exactly what to do? Have you heard me speak enough? Do you know what I'm going to say before you hear my voice? I still remember that eve When I felt myself give into a love A blissful time, as it still is, I could never alone conceive I still feel as I own the stars above.
"Requiem"
You think I do not notice, you think I do not see
Those petty slivers of manipulation running past me?
To treat me like a child, how dare you deceive
Consider me a fool - stuped and stumbling words to believe?
Your face hides a thousand things you wouldn't want to show
Your words blanket all the things you'd hate for me to know
How I do not fill you like so many could before I even spoke your name
If you find yourself back into depression - you're to blame
Push me away with those sugared breaths
Attempting to expand the spade in my breasts
Tell me how you sleep when I taste my tears
Tell me how your mind is quiet while mine burns and sears
Your eyes hide behind your own pleas
You cannot be my master when you're on your knees
How I play with you, this sick game - play along
And I hear my own voice locked in such a sad song
Are these doubtings ill fated
Or are these feelings overrated?
Smoke and mirrors to bottle her magic love and care
Do you comprehend this or were you ever there?
I'm dying and no one can know because it's so moronic
So I medicate myself with personification and green tonic
"Best Not to Question"
Watching dark eyes in the blurring glass
I'm pretending I never cared that I was second best
Trying so hard to uphold my traditional class
Afterall, I'm too sophistocated to be hurt like the rest
But I've known for so long, words are true
Every little limerick in detail of what you're missing
"What did you settle for? She'll give into you"
It's the lies of a thousand others on the lips you're kissing
This face your fingers find so dutifully
Don't hold the affection they would have had then
The tears that stained that cheek once beautifully
Only makes it easier to tell where you wish you'd been
And all the twisting fingers could never erase
All the times I had to realize again and again
That I was merely meant to fill her void, take this place
That's where we did begin. That's where we will begin
"Greyness II"
Swinging pendelum fingertips
Time, a question I cannot answer or even ask
Bound to rise for such quivering lips
In your presence I will bask
Sinking through again into the fabricated deep
Please don't leave me alone in this place
What is bliss without another? What is awake without sleep?
Stop fretting over the world and lose ourselves in the other's embrace
Bite my tongue, you're so beautiful in this light
The filtered sun, a soft stream of grey
Lead me into the unknown, hold the night
I promise with you I'll stay
Whispers that are too faint to be heard
Your eyes glow here, they understand what I mean
I know what you're saying without a word
Your eyes glow here - here they gleam
It's midnight and I'm gutting myself out
I can't find my hands, it's dark and my mouth's thick
Feels like my skins on fire...and no one wants to touch it
Love makes you learn, lies make your love devout
There's plenty of room in your arms for the masses
The encircling of flesh and bone
I'm stumbling over the staircase, still alone
Waiting on the carpet as the haze passes
Unaware of what I hear or see
Blind to the bodies entertwined and warm
Still waiting for this idea to concrete in my mind
But all I know is you're not here with me
I'm too belligerent to care
"So, how did you end up here
Did they forget about you, too?"
And I find I'm talking to air
"Canine"
I'm alive when you're touching me
My heart beats faster when you wrench me down
Piece of mind? or pieces of memories lost and found?
I'm so alive when you're screaming that you've got to change me
Truth be told, I like the run around
Why is this violent argument
So deeply rolled in our own resentment?
I've held stronger than this ground
Shown you things you may not want to see
But you've steeped all those lovely nothings
Held on to your forgotten... anything
Just to make sure you've got that sympathy
You're a lush and a pretty liar
And those eyes are shallow
those sensual lips are weak and hollow
Become pain quenched by desire.
"Abstractly blatant"
I love you, as I did watching that uneventful and enchanting summer's day fading into night.I savored the refreshing way your rich smile filled me as the golden orb of the sun slid behind the horizon, darkening the sky to purple twilight And caught the glimmer of your blue eyes, haunting as the sea Stars, they seemed, captured even behind the rheum of those eyes That glimmered so well with the clearly visible stars of that hour and it's essence I lost myself inside your whole being, contentedly severing all ties You combined with these shimmering globes, holding your own stellar presence Those sparkling diamonds which had once been so far, felt as though they belonged to we two Have you given me the stars? Or have you lifted me high enough so I may pluck one of my choice Did I tell you how to love me? Or did you know exactly what to do? Have you heard me speak enough? Do you know what I'm going to say before you hear my voice? I still remember that eve When I felt myself give into a love A blissful time, as it still is, I could never alone conceive I still feel as I own the stars above.
"Requiem"
You think I do not notice, you think I do not see
Those petty slivers of manipulation running past me?
To treat me like a child, how dare you deceive
Consider me a fool - stuped and stumbling words to believe?
Your face hides a thousand things you wouldn't want to show
Your words blanket all the things you'd hate for me to know
How I do not fill you like so many could before I even spoke your name
If you find yourself back into depression - you're to blame
Push me away with those sugared breaths
Attempting to expand the spade in my breasts
Tell me how you sleep when I taste my tears
Tell me how your mind is quiet while mine burns and sears
Your eyes hide behind your own pleas
You cannot be my master when you're on your knees
How I play with you, this sick game - play along
And I hear my own voice locked in such a sad song
Are these doubtings ill fated
Or are these feelings overrated?
Smoke and mirrors to bottle her magic love and care
Do you comprehend this or were you ever there?
I'm dying and no one can know because it's so moronic
So I medicate myself with personification and green tonic
"Best Not to Question"
Watching dark eyes in the blurring glass
I'm pretending I never cared that I was second best
Trying so hard to uphold my traditional class
Afterall, I'm too sophistocated to be hurt like the rest
But I've known for so long, words are true
Every little limerick in detail of what you're missing
"What did you settle for? She'll give into you"
It's the lies of a thousand others on the lips you're kissing
This face your fingers find so dutifully
Don't hold the affection they would have had then
The tears that stained that cheek once beautifully
Only makes it easier to tell where you wish you'd been
And all the twisting fingers could never erase
All the times I had to realize again and again
That I was merely meant to fill her void, take this place
That's where we did begin. That's where we will begin
"Greyness II"
Swinging pendelum fingertips
Time, a question I cannot answer or even ask
Bound to rise for such quivering lips
In your presence I will bask
Sinking through again into the fabricated deep
Please don't leave me alone in this place
What is bliss without another? What is awake without sleep?
Stop fretting over the world and lose ourselves in the other's embrace
Bite my tongue, you're so beautiful in this light
The filtered sun, a soft stream of grey
Lead me into the unknown, hold the night
I promise with you I'll stay
Whispers that are too faint to be heard
Your eyes glow here, they understand what I mean
I know what you're saying without a word
Your eyes glow here - here they gleam