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This weekend was fun. For the most part I guess. I didn't get to house a prospect which was stupid. Although I wasn't really around much that night anyways. I went to Alice's Saturday morning and that was hilarious as usual. Then later that day I went out to Ben's and lost some money. We ended up back at Alice's early Sunday too. Sunday was interesting. I went to Indy. Wasted lots of time driving the wrong way on 465. Came back and went to Luke's and hung out there for a while. Then Ben Luke and I went out to Luke's parent's house to see Levi. Then I went home. It was a good weekend.
A couple things happened this weekend that should have made me really happy. I don't know why, but they didn't. I still feel like there are things that have to be done for any of this to work. And it's hard not to think about those things. I don't like myself right now.
You could have anyone else. Someone more trustworthy, someone less "easy", someone more everything. Why me then? I mean "fuck".
I hope I stop being so retarded about this.
I hope this all works out.
I hope you are happy.
I am when I'm with you.
But not so much any other time.
I hate snow.
Laters.
A couple things happened this weekend that should have made me really happy. I don't know why, but they didn't. I still feel like there are things that have to be done for any of this to work. And it's hard not to think about those things. I don't like myself right now.
You could have anyone else. Someone more trustworthy, someone less "easy", someone more everything. Why me then? I mean "fuck".
I hope I stop being so retarded about this.
I hope this all works out.
I hope you are happy.
I am when I'm with you.
But not so much any other time.
I hate snow.
Laters.