lowell
this place is so fucking boring that it's almost painful. i'm sorry, but coming back here from living in boston for 5 years is not an easy adjustment. it was ok in the beginning, i enjoyed a solace tuesday here. sometimes a sunday, whatever. but now it's just overwhelmingly bland since i cut down my hours at the shop in beacon hill, i tend to forget my phone charger at friends' places in boston and i go out in the middle of the night in lowell to empty streets to smoke cigarettes and there's nothing but silence.
a friend of mine gave me a lecture in regard to not being "that guy on the couch", recently, and at first it made perfect sense and i began to think that cutting down my workload in boston would be best. i have a really great opportunity in lowell to expand my horizons in a different field. when i'm training at the restaurant, it's cool! but once i leave it's like i'm in fucking high school all over again. mom comes to pick me up, and then i get home and just sit here since everyone works 9-5 M-F and just.. SDJFHLSDJKL
i guess i am just better suited in a city. maybe i need to focus harder on getting to california than ever before, but in the same token - i am more comfortable in boston than ever before, aside from not having a solid, standard, living space. do i just focus on securing a place out in a more desirable part on the city or do i suck it up in the most boring of so-called cityslashtowns where nothing goes on in my neighborhood, i have almost no outlet to a social / interesting / anything and try to save money so i can move to los angeles, pitch my dreams to a television network and hope for the best?
fucking hell.
a friend of mine gave me a lecture in regard to not being "that guy on the couch", recently, and at first it made perfect sense and i began to think that cutting down my workload in boston would be best. i have a really great opportunity in lowell to expand my horizons in a different field. when i'm training at the restaurant, it's cool! but once i leave it's like i'm in fucking high school all over again. mom comes to pick me up, and then i get home and just sit here since everyone works 9-5 M-F and just.. SDJFHLSDJKL
i guess i am just better suited in a city. maybe i need to focus harder on getting to california than ever before, but in the same token - i am more comfortable in boston than ever before, aside from not having a solid, standard, living space. do i just focus on securing a place out in a more desirable part on the city or do i suck it up in the most boring of so-called cityslashtowns where nothing goes on in my neighborhood, i have almost no outlet to a social / interesting / anything and try to save money so i can move to los angeles, pitch my dreams to a television network and hope for the best?
fucking hell.