this is the noise that keeps me awake; my head explodes and my body aches.
& "i don't wanna hear, i don't wanna know. i've seen it all before and i can't take it anymore."
(lyrics from the two themes of this entry above.)
is how the songs goes. and how a lot of things go with me recently. kind of blows. and it's not just chris.
le sigh. i do not predict a near future breakup but things need to change and this summer needs to not be a replica of last, becaaaaause color me done if so. and it's a promise i've made to myself to preserve how great everything else is going on in my life. maybe that's selfish or irrational, but it's how i feel. and i would never want to lose him, but shit better straighten out sooner than later or i'm gonna take a raincheck and just live in brett's closet. haha. sean's too i'm sure.
things that have surfaced in my life recently:
1. kelly coffey being the most generous, caring and kind friend ever, next to my jersey ladies.
2. um, coachella / california
3. opportunties @ geffen records (HELLO RECORD LABEL OF GARBAGE AND WEEZER)
4. sylvia, brian hall believing in a brutha, harvard square and getting the job title i've been entitled too and is long overdue. him buying me tequila shots. caroline. everything about cambridge. a stellar review from jesse and lots of fun raises and new positions.
5. writing show / dance night reviews for boston live magazine
6. not being poor
7. sexy grey colored clothing
8. yeaheyeahyeahz @ orpheum
9. webmastering emergencymusic.com (and hating it a little but loving the new record live and for free, free beeahs!)
10. lotsa cobras. king cobras. 40 oz of king cobra, i am a beer machine, lovely to have met you. pardon the golden shower breath.
11. siouxsie & the banshees
12. sean's bday pahties
13. neal and damien spinning @ solstice!
14. happy endings and everyone involved, with the ladies of the paradise rock club
15. paper @ harpers' ferry when they don't kick me out, i don't feedl elderly and the music is fantastico.
16. hot lunch @ reelbar featuring sir david dancer himself, formerly of the harvard square urban variety. great guy. $1 schlitz!
17. love nite @ common ground
18. being so excited about life all the time that it keeps you awake, cue push it.
:) so it's not all bad.
(lyrics from the two themes of this entry above.)
is how the songs goes. and how a lot of things go with me recently. kind of blows. and it's not just chris.
le sigh. i do not predict a near future breakup but things need to change and this summer needs to not be a replica of last, becaaaaause color me done if so. and it's a promise i've made to myself to preserve how great everything else is going on in my life. maybe that's selfish or irrational, but it's how i feel. and i would never want to lose him, but shit better straighten out sooner than later or i'm gonna take a raincheck and just live in brett's closet. haha. sean's too i'm sure.
things that have surfaced in my life recently:
1. kelly coffey being the most generous, caring and kind friend ever, next to my jersey ladies.
2. um, coachella / california
3. opportunties @ geffen records (HELLO RECORD LABEL OF GARBAGE AND WEEZER)
4. sylvia, brian hall believing in a brutha, harvard square and getting the job title i've been entitled too and is long overdue. him buying me tequila shots. caroline. everything about cambridge. a stellar review from jesse and lots of fun raises and new positions.
5. writing show / dance night reviews for boston live magazine
6. not being poor
7. sexy grey colored clothing
8. yeaheyeahyeahz @ orpheum
9. webmastering emergencymusic.com (and hating it a little but loving the new record live and for free, free beeahs!)
10. lotsa cobras. king cobras. 40 oz of king cobra, i am a beer machine, lovely to have met you. pardon the golden shower breath.
11. siouxsie & the banshees
12. sean's bday pahties
13. neal and damien spinning @ solstice!
14. happy endings and everyone involved, with the ladies of the paradise rock club
15. paper @ harpers' ferry when they don't kick me out, i don't feedl elderly and the music is fantastico.
16. hot lunch @ reelbar featuring sir david dancer himself, formerly of the harvard square urban variety. great guy. $1 schlitz!
17. love nite @ common ground
18. being so excited about life all the time that it keeps you awake, cue push it.
:) so it's not all bad.