Stormy's post made me think...
This is the first time in a long time I've felt the need to write in here... I don't think anyone really reads this anymore.
So much has happened since August that I didn't really realize it until now. Well, maybe I did but chose not to acknowledge it.
I'm not the same person I used to be. I thought I had such a clear idea of what I was about, but lately it's all been jumbled up. I always thought that cliche of "finding yourself" and blah blah blah I don't know who I am was bullshit, but it's been feeling all too real. I've finally settled into Alfred and I love it here. I really do. Visiting Geneseo today and hanging out with Audrey made me a little homesick though. I don't know what it is, honestly, because my mind is so happy to be in school and I am genuinely enjoying it, but there's something else that's uncontrollable that lets these stupid little thoughts pop up. I'm thrilled I've found friends here and they're great. I'm always going to have a place for my friends at home. I just feel like I'm kind of floating in the middle.
For the past two days I've been in this ridiculously emotional mood. Music makes me want to cry and I've been "pondering" which is never a good sign. And no, I'm not pregnant or PMSing. Weird, huh.
Bleh... I don't know what it's all about. I miss Lauren and Kristen. They get it.
So much has happened since August that I didn't really realize it until now. Well, maybe I did but chose not to acknowledge it.
I'm not the same person I used to be. I thought I had such a clear idea of what I was about, but lately it's all been jumbled up. I always thought that cliche of "finding yourself" and blah blah blah I don't know who I am was bullshit, but it's been feeling all too real. I've finally settled into Alfred and I love it here. I really do. Visiting Geneseo today and hanging out with Audrey made me a little homesick though. I don't know what it is, honestly, because my mind is so happy to be in school and I am genuinely enjoying it, but there's something else that's uncontrollable that lets these stupid little thoughts pop up. I'm thrilled I've found friends here and they're great. I'm always going to have a place for my friends at home. I just feel like I'm kind of floating in the middle.
For the past two days I've been in this ridiculously emotional mood. Music makes me want to cry and I've been "pondering" which is never a good sign. And no, I'm not pregnant or PMSing. Weird, huh.
Bleh... I don't know what it's all about. I miss Lauren and Kristen. They get it.