The past few months have been pretty hellish.
But I have managed to keep my head on fairly straight. I have lost my cool on a few occasions. On being with Gayton, costing us our friendship. Yes, that means we no longer talk. There is no doubt my nan is rolling over in her grave, but maybe she can now see just how douchy he can really be. Before Nan died, I had been seeing this guy James... I think I briefly mentioned that. Anyway, Gayton had been him a bit of a hard time when he would see him in town. Thankfully Brian had the decency to step in. But it didn't stop him. The final straw broke when Gayton called me out on Facebook when I used the word "tosser" ... Saying "you're not English... You can't use that." On a good day, and if it were someone else, I probably would have reacted differently. Probably would have said something witty or just laughed. But because of what has been going on, I fucking snapped. I sent him a private msg asking him if he needed to always be a dickhead. He replied "yes, yes I do. But that wasn't me really being a dickhead... That was you over reacting." Me: "yeah, maybe I was... But this is a build up with everything you do and say to me. Last fucking straw Gayton. I can't deal with your shit anymore. Fucking knock it off." He didn't respond ... I had this urge to see if he still had me as a Facebook friend... And what do ya know.... It said "add Gayton as a friend." I would be lying I'd I said I didn't cry over it. But looking back now, I feel so much better. Though, last Monday was an adventure. James and I have pretty much called things off. We wouldn't have worked out and he felt that him not having his licence was tying me down. There are a few other things that I don't really want to get into. We did try to go the root of friends with benefits… that wasn't working out. We didn't even get to have sex... I had been talking to this guy on POF since the CFL game. His name is Chris. When I started talking to him, this was when James and I were trying the FWB. So Chris and I have been talking a lot. I found out that he was in a band that played at the Ren Fest I used to work at. He now plays in another Celtic rock band. Which they are really good. There was a point I time where he kept asking me to get together with him for drinks. At the time I had been trying to work on my Simply Accounting course (for the record.... NOT SIMPLE). It had been eating into my life and I couldn't do shit all. I decided to drop the class. But I was also still trying to avoid Chris on POF. He would say things to me like how pretty I was and how he had a few dreams about me... Which weirded me out. He was on the verge of giving up on things when St. Paddy's day rolled around. Stef and I went to the lionheart pub and when I walked in... I was really surprised to look up and see him on the stage. I could feel him looking at me though out their set. When they went out for a smoke during their break, I had gone over to my car to get some thing and when I got back I could feel the whole freaking band looking at me. Awkward! Anyway, they were selling their CDs and after my third Guinness ... Stef talked me into going up to get one. I went up, and asked them to sign it. He acted like he didn't know me. Well, this was the first time he met me so it's understandable. When I went back to my table, I felt that I should check my POF account. I used Stef's phone and I had 2 Msgs from him. One asking "Are you at the Lionheart british pub right now?" And the other said "I think you were there...but I didn't want to say hi, just in case...If it WAS...enjoy the signed CD's ;)"... So since the. We have been talking a lot. Well most Of the time. Both of our schedules are crazy busy. Anyway, now back to Monday's adventure. I went to the mall in Brampton on my break at the volunteer center. I was walking and then walked into the drummer in their band. She was really excited to see me. Which was a surprise because when I met her on St. Paddy's day, she kept looking at me like I was doing something wrong. She told me that Chris was with the others in the food court. So as I was approaching their table guess who I see two tables over. If you guessed Gayton, you are right. I wanted to put a bullet in my head. I managed to keep my shit together. He was sitting with his girlfriend Kate (funny isn't it?). As soon as Kate saw me she got all excited... Sometimes I think she is either a few bricks short of a full load or she did it on purpose. She dragged him over to say hi. Yeah, it didn't go over too well... Not like I actually thought it would. Gayton was bitter and Chris was super nice. He left as soon a possible. It was all kinds of awkward I do not want to encounter again. I would love for something in my life to go smooth.
So.... In other news Dropkick Murphys are coming to Toronto in a few months. Pretty excited.... I'm going to go and get the tickets this week. I think this Tuesday. It sucks, I wanted to get Shannon tickets to see Great Big Sea in July... But they are playing on the day of her 10 year anniversary with Rob.
Anyway, that's the news to fit the print. I gotta get a nap in, my head is pounding and I have to go meet up with Chris and them... In my drunken state apparently I agreed to sing some songs with them tonight at the pub. Shoot me please.
Happy Easter to you all!!!!
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