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who knew everything could fall apart in a matter of 2 hours?
its not supposed to be like this!
what happened
to when we used to care?
what happened
to when life was fair?
when we never made excuses
and actually tried
when things werent so crazy
and i never cried
its not supposed to be like this!
nothing is like it was
or how its supposed to be
what happened when
it was me and you three?
when nothing was wrong
and we never put up or walls
or ever ran from anything
and catching eachothers falls
its not supposed to be like this!
and ill scream it over
and over again
until its like
the way it was back when
back when nothing sucked
and nothing fell apart
when nothing tore under my skin
and ripped at my heart
its not supposed to be like this!
Aug. 25
7:40 am
i hate people. especially stupid ones. i hate trenton. i hate hitchcocks. i hate school. i hate newberry. i hate assholes. and i hate myself. so fuck all of you who dont give an obvious god damn about me. you have no idea what i put myself through for ANY of you. so you can go fuck yourself if you wanna say shit to me, b/c you know i'd fucking do ANYTHING for you and i dont feel like i need to be bitched at for having my moment. and fuck your bullshit "i didnt make you cry." how the fuck would you know? you have never cried in your life, so you wouldnt understand. and fuck your best friend bullshit, you treat me like shit. if you ever treat *her* like that, i will beat the shit out of you, and thats a promise. and im not going to appologize to you either, cuz all i did yesterday was care about my friend, and i appologized to the people i needed to. so fuck you and your bitching. take it somewhere else, cuz i dont fucking need it here.
*EDIT*
3:52 p.m.
i love you and you know it. just quit making me mad, it hurts me. and im sorry too. just please stay in school. and again, i love you, youre my best friend
July 19
"random thoughts"
time passes and im lost in a blur
everything is new
everything is old
the same old arguments
day after day
cant you find something new?
pain sets in
and my mind crumbles
thoughts pass
and memories blur
and everything
molds into one mass
whats different?
it all looks the same
i need change
i have change
but is it good?
or is it bad?
but still these fights
long and short
new and old
get to me
every damn time
it kills me
over and over
to the point where i just wanna run
run away so i wont have to hear it
they put me in the middle
but i have had enough of that
i have my own problems
just like yor own
heat flashes accross
and i start to get hot
is it anger?
or is it just reality?
who knows any more
its not supposed to be like this!
what happened
to when we used to care?
what happened
to when life was fair?
when we never made excuses
and actually tried
when things werent so crazy
and i never cried
its not supposed to be like this!
nothing is like it was
or how its supposed to be
what happened when
it was me and you three?
when nothing was wrong
and we never put up or walls
or ever ran from anything
and catching eachothers falls
its not supposed to be like this!
and ill scream it over
and over again
until its like
the way it was back when
back when nothing sucked
and nothing fell apart
when nothing tore under my skin
and ripped at my heart
its not supposed to be like this!
Aug. 25
7:40 am
i hate people. especially stupid ones. i hate trenton. i hate hitchcocks. i hate school. i hate newberry. i hate assholes. and i hate myself. so fuck all of you who dont give an obvious god damn about me. you have no idea what i put myself through for ANY of you. so you can go fuck yourself if you wanna say shit to me, b/c you know i'd fucking do ANYTHING for you and i dont feel like i need to be bitched at for having my moment. and fuck your bullshit "i didnt make you cry." how the fuck would you know? you have never cried in your life, so you wouldnt understand. and fuck your best friend bullshit, you treat me like shit. if you ever treat *her* like that, i will beat the shit out of you, and thats a promise. and im not going to appologize to you either, cuz all i did yesterday was care about my friend, and i appologized to the people i needed to. so fuck you and your bitching. take it somewhere else, cuz i dont fucking need it here.
*EDIT*
3:52 p.m.
i love you and you know it. just quit making me mad, it hurts me. and im sorry too. just please stay in school. and again, i love you, youre my best friend
July 19
"random thoughts"
time passes and im lost in a blur
everything is new
everything is old
the same old arguments
day after day
cant you find something new?
pain sets in
and my mind crumbles
thoughts pass
and memories blur
and everything
molds into one mass
whats different?
it all looks the same
i need change
i have change
but is it good?
or is it bad?
but still these fights
long and short
new and old
get to me
every damn time
it kills me
over and over
to the point where i just wanna run
run away so i wont have to hear it
they put me in the middle
but i have had enough of that
i have my own problems
just like yor own
heat flashes accross
and i start to get hot
is it anger?
or is it just reality?
who knows any more